I should list one of my interests as 'caveats'.

[raybear]

There's been a theme this week, involving me feeling compromised about personal journaling and how it relates to real people in my life reading it on a regular basis. It's not the first time I've ever though about it obviously, but nowadays I have many "real-life" folks reading my entries while also forming more "real-life" frienships with people outside of LJ. So I'm making it more complicated for myself, I suppose. But I take it as a sign that I've received a couple of direct remarks from folks encouraging me to remain forthright and honest. I've also read a couple posts not aimed at me but addressing the exact same issue. So I guess all I have to say is this:

Everything I write is true at the time, but may not stay true. And it's only a small percentage. I know that's sort of scary, but no matter how much of my heart I seem to wear on my sleeve, I never completely reveal myself.

So yeah. This is such a weird format for keeping a journal in some ways, because I love getting comments and feedback and having conversations. But occasionally there's just the desire to have it be a record of events or whatever. I don't really want to compromise either one.

And now back to our regularly scheduled postings....

Comments

[legalmoose]

You know, you can set an entry to "no comments" if you just want it in there with no extraneous feedback.

[raybear.livejournal.com]

yeah, and i've done that before. i'm more feeling weird about posting something that someone will read and misinterpret. like i'm using a journal entry to "tell them something" instead of telling them directly.

[wearemany.livejournal.com]

like i'm using a journal entry to "tell them something" instead of telling them directly.

wait, i'm sorry. i'm sorry? that's not the point of these live journals?

goddamnit, why don't these things come with guidebooks?

i keep forgetting about the "private" option, also. which is good, it makes me record for myself and i can always sneak back in later and change it. but i know just what you mean. as you know. cause you've read. and for the record, that wasn't a hint. did you see what my LE said? she's so much wiser than the rest of us grownups.

hey

[clockwatcher.livejournal.com]

phyllis felt that way while we were broken up over the summer. true or not? who knows. not in the way she thought but probably not completely a lie either.

Re: hey

[raybear.livejournal.com]

sometimes I admit that I use LJ to talk about something in a certain way and I hope someone might be reading it. I did that this summer as well, actually. but i don't want it to become the primary way of communicating, if that makes sense. at least when it comes to people i'm close and see very day (obvious example: melanie).

so i think i might have been trying to remind myself, that's all. :)