I should list one of my interests as 'caveats'.

[raybear]

There's been a theme this week, involving me feeling compromised about personal journaling and how it relates to real people in my life reading it on a regular basis. It's not the first time I've ever though about it obviously, but nowadays I have many "real-life" folks reading my entries while also forming more "real-life" frienships with people outside of LJ. So I'm making it more complicated for myself, I suppose. But I take it as a sign that I've received a couple of direct remarks from folks encouraging me to remain forthright and honest. I've also read a couple posts not aimed at me but addressing the exact same issue. So I guess all I have to say is this:

Everything I write is true at the time, but may not stay true. And it's only a small percentage. I know that's sort of scary, but no matter how much of my heart I seem to wear on my sleeve, I never completely reveal myself.

So yeah. This is such a weird format for keeping a journal in some ways, because I love getting comments and feedback and having conversations. But occasionally there's just the desire to have it be a record of events or whatever. I don't really want to compromise either one.

And now back to our regularly scheduled postings....

Comments

hey

[clockwatcher.livejournal.com]

phyllis felt that way while we were broken up over the summer. true or not? who knows. not in the way she thought but probably not completely a lie either.

Re: hey

[raybear.livejournal.com]

sometimes I admit that I use LJ to talk about something in a certain way and I hope someone might be reading it. I did that this summer as well, actually. but i don't want it to become the primary way of communicating, if that makes sense. at least when it comes to people i'm close and see very day (obvious example: melanie).

so i think i might have been trying to remind myself, that's all. :)