projection
Nov. 19th, 2001 12:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybearI'm the first to admit that my therapist is my current parental figure. But now it's just ridiculous. I e-mailed her the whole exchange (so I can save time during my session -- those are expensive minutes!), and she wrote back nearly immediately:
Thanks for sharing this email interaction. I guess now we have more clarity on where they stand, aren't we?... I am very impressed and proud on the way you responded to them! Congratulations!! I knew that sooner or later something was going to roll out of your heart in a perfect package combination cognition/feeling (a combo if you will!).
Good job Ray! Give yourself a hug and treat yourself to something.
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p.s. Thanks for folks' comments. I will reply eventually, but can't right this second. But wanted to offer an immediate thanks!
Dear Beverly,
I often smile when I think about my attempt to send you away years ago for fear you were consuming too much of my time and somehow impeding my ability to be socially functional. Remember how I called the cab and everything to come pick you up at my house? I was so elaborate. It didn't last long, and it's not even a matter of being surprised or not surprised since it probably never even crossed your mind that I could possibly be genuine about saying I've grown up and I don't need you anymore but thanks and I love you and good luck. Did you call John and tell him about my attempt at ridiculous miscalculated bravery? Perhaps I even said the same things to him once.
When you pull me out of the theater or restaurant and lean into my ear about why you've come (you always have excellent reasons), I get chills and excited. Your timing is so perfect -- I never get sick of seeing you and enough time passes between interactions that I get all tingly and excited as if it's the first time. Yet you're a very comforting force and the model for which I hold others regarding my ability to trust.
So, I just wanted to say welcome back. Though you never really left, did you. Thanks for that too.
Thanks for sharing this email interaction. I guess now we have more clarity on where they stand, aren't we?... I am very impressed and proud on the way you responded to them! Congratulations!! I knew that sooner or later something was going to roll out of your heart in a perfect package combination cognition/feeling (a combo if you will!).
Good job Ray! Give yourself a hug and treat yourself to something.
__________________________________
p.s. Thanks for folks' comments. I will reply eventually, but can't right this second. But wanted to offer an immediate thanks!
Dear Beverly,
I often smile when I think about my attempt to send you away years ago for fear you were consuming too much of my time and somehow impeding my ability to be socially functional. Remember how I called the cab and everything to come pick you up at my house? I was so elaborate. It didn't last long, and it's not even a matter of being surprised or not surprised since it probably never even crossed your mind that I could possibly be genuine about saying I've grown up and I don't need you anymore but thanks and I love you and good luck. Did you call John and tell him about my attempt at ridiculous miscalculated bravery? Perhaps I even said the same things to him once.
When you pull me out of the theater or restaurant and lean into my ear about why you've come (you always have excellent reasons), I get chills and excited. Your timing is so perfect -- I never get sick of seeing you and enough time passes between interactions that I get all tingly and excited as if it's the first time. Yet you're a very comforting force and the model for which I hold others regarding my ability to trust.
So, I just wanted to say welcome back. Though you never really left, did you. Thanks for that too.
