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raybearI slept long and hard, but sprung awake at 7am, briefly confused to be in my own bed. Now I'm in the living room attempting to find something remotely entertaining on the telvision. And failing. Ooooh -- a countdown on VH1! Now we're onto something.
I'm glad I had four days off from work, though part of me is already dreading going back. I just need to stay focused on getting a few select tasks done, and otherwise occupy myself with things like the xmas party, planning for the upcoming holidays, and the days off for the office party, etc. etc. Also, I need to channel my frustration into productive energy and make things happen careerwise. Which is pretty much what needs to happen to overcome my shyness when it comes to calling up some studio from my list and asking if they have any internship/part-time work available. If it was a matter of just firing off coverletters and resumes, I'd be all over it -- unfortunately it's more about chatting it up, showing interest, knowledge and general go-getterness. Or something.
In the past week I've had a lot more mini-bursts of pure frustration and sadness regarding my family. I didn't realize HOW much I was converting every feeling into self-preservation, self-sufficiency, and anger. And now I seem to be having these brief but intense moments of complete pain and grief. Which I suppose is important for moving on. But somewhat embarassing depending on when it happens. Luckily, I don't think anyone is noticing. Shhh. Don't tell.
Maybe I'll climb back into bed and see if someone is wake and/or willing to entertain me.
I'm glad I had four days off from work, though part of me is already dreading going back. I just need to stay focused on getting a few select tasks done, and otherwise occupy myself with things like the xmas party, planning for the upcoming holidays, and the days off for the office party, etc. etc. Also, I need to channel my frustration into productive energy and make things happen careerwise. Which is pretty much what needs to happen to overcome my shyness when it comes to calling up some studio from my list and asking if they have any internship/part-time work available. If it was a matter of just firing off coverletters and resumes, I'd be all over it -- unfortunately it's more about chatting it up, showing interest, knowledge and general go-getterness. Or something.
In the past week I've had a lot more mini-bursts of pure frustration and sadness regarding my family. I didn't realize HOW much I was converting every feeling into self-preservation, self-sufficiency, and anger. And now I seem to be having these brief but intense moments of complete pain and grief. Which I suppose is important for moving on. But somewhat embarassing depending on when it happens. Luckily, I don't think anyone is noticing. Shhh. Don't tell.
Maybe I'll climb back into bed and see if someone is wake and/or willing to entertain me.
