Dec. 11th, 2001

raybear: (ghostface)
Dear Raymond, here is your Weekly Horoscope for Dec 10 to Dec 16, 2001

You may feel out of your element this week, with the emphasis being
placed so heavily on the fire element. Your work and daily routines
continue to be emphasized, and contacts with those from other countries
continue to be very strong. In fact, there is a real likelihood that you
may even get to visit some of these people and get to know them a lot
better. One way or another, travel is indicated, and this will bring you
a new lease on life. As Mars has moved into the sign of Pisces, you may
find that people are more agreeable to your plans and ideas, and seem to
warm to your ways of approaching issues. Right now no one is really in
the mood to act in an overt and up-front way, even though there may be
some very unsubtle things going on around you. When it comes down to it,
you know that charging ahead with everyone else to demand an immediate
share of the pie is not going to get you where you need to be. You will
have to resort to the way that you know best, and that is to undermine
those who think that by being first means they are the winners.
__________________________________________________________


Seven years ago I was in a production of Wilde's "The Importance of Being Earnest". But for some reason I'm only just now 'getting' the title phrase.

One of my most influential friends and mentors in high school was youth group counselor named Laura Jordan. (I'm posting her full name, because if for some reason someone DOES know her or she does stumble upon this, I would be thrilled to reconnect.) And more recently I've been thinking a lot about her and how she would interact with folks, and how I could possibly emulate her more. She has a remarkable ability to be honest and earnest and thoughtful, and even though she might not be the "coolest" or "hippest" person since she doesn't ridicule or deconstruct or make hyper-clever casual remarks, she has a unique ability to make someone feel like an asshole without making them feel like an asshole. By that, I mean she was always someone who could stop me in my tracks, make me see the other side of what I was saying, without making me feel unworthy or stupid or even excessively mean. But I would see any "error in my ways". My mother was sometimes really good at this as well.

I mean, Laura was smart and funny and intelligent and definitely had the capability to be clever and witty and wicked. She just didn't use it excessively or as a response to every situation. And that is the talent I would like to learn more. For two reasons. One, to shut myself up sometimes. Two, to respond appropriately to other people. Sometimes people say something that I find too demeaning or negative or critical, or even just plain mean. But I don't necessarily know how to respond without being negative and critical and mean as well. I need to work more on being reflective, not accusatory.

Irony-free, eh? What is expected anyway?
raybear: (turntable)
Join a Car-Sharing Club TODAY!

I did some christmas shopping today on my lunch break and miraculously enough bought nothing for myself, though I had an item in my hand and later talked myself out of it. Actually there was very little conversation -- it was mostly just telling myself "naw, you really shouldn't. put it back" and then me obeying my orders. I can be very good at obeying orders, assuming I like the person. So the grand conclusion of my lunch hour is that I must like myself.

MelRo is making me miss being a student. One gets way more vacation days as a student, even more than me and my sweet benefits deal. I wish I had three weeks with nowhere specific to report. I suppose I could just not show up at the office for awhile, but I don't want to learn the lesson of Gregory Isaac -- lose your 9 to 5, lose your girl. And then who would cook dinner for me every night? Maybe I can buy myself "The Chef".....

So I think I've settled on my first equipment purchase: the Akai MPC. I think that would be a better thousand dollars spent than a workstation, because why purchase recording equipment if I have nothing to record? Though I'm still a tad hesitant to throw down for the sampler, then a year from now I realize I suck at making beats and I hate it. The MPC wouldn't have as many alternate uses as the Roland (which I could at least use to burn CD's and convert vinyl and tapes to digital). BUT I still think it's best to go with the MPC first. I can save my isht to zip and burn it on a regular PC. Hell, I could get a brand new PC for cheaper than the Roland piece I'm eyeing, which is why the second big-ticket item purchase will be difficult to decide on as well.

Plus, there's that whole surgery I want to have next year.

Damn, I need to win the lottery. Or perhaps find a patron. Or there's my idea from last year about auditioning for the Real World and volunteering to have my surgery included in their plotlines on the condition that they pay for it. Maybe I should revisit that idea....
raybear: (Default)
[a short paragraph revealing xmas gifts has been deleted]

Subject: "Remember that MTV footage of Tipper?" OF COURSE!!
To: "Damon Brown"

> The 4-Non Blondes woman can come, too...
> assuming she'd like me. Is she
> a lesbian? You know I got fked up gaydar. Alright,
> it's not THAT fked up...

Well, first you must learn her name before you kick it
with her. It's Linda Perry. And she's a
little...gritty for my taste. Which is like crunchy,
but in an urban way. I just made that isht up, and
now I'm using it ALL the time. anyway, you can have
her. And it might even be possible, since I think
she's bisexual. Or at least was when she first came
out.

> Speaking of, did I tell you that I thought MelRo's
> friend Tara was hot? Yes,
> I know the deal, but it doesn't matter like John
> Denver. She's still hot.

Um, I have nothing to say to this. Just wanted to
reiterate. She's such a lesbian. Yes, your gaydar is
fcked up. But you're right, she's also a very hot
lesbian.

> Tipper Gore is one of the few women where I'm like
> "Yeah, she's cute, but I
> can't see myself getting with her or doing anything
> with her."

Suit yourself. More Tipper for me.

Ok, now I just feel extra-sleazy. I must shower.

I had a Burger King chicken sandwich for lunch and it
tasted just like those chicken sandwiches that my high
school cafeteria served. Sorta tasty, but sorta make
you want to vomit. Luckily I got the onion rings to
help settle things down.

Still no word from the road warriors. Except Mad Max,
but he doesn't count. He got old.

[....]
Oh, and a new XXL is out.
Guess who's on the cover? DMX. No, I'm serious. Why
do I suddenly think he's all hot? Are my hormones up
or something? Funny how a random attraction will come
out of nowhere. Maybe I just like him always rapping
about holding his....and other people sucking...

I'm going to stop now.
I can't believe I talked about getting busy with
Tipper Gore and DMX in the same e-mail. I think I
just ripped a whole in the space-time continuum.
raybear: (ghostface)





I didn't even take this "quiz" -- I just stole the image. And I don't even have remorse. And don't try to click on the image and find the quiz -- I eliminated that as well. I will not be an enabler. Just sit back and enjoy the Martha.

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