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Every night this week I've had dreams about work, about time slipping away and never able to finish my to-do list. Not so much severe anxiety, like time-sensitive projects not getting done. But just general real-life work dreams.
Except last night. Last night I dreamt I was in school, a strange blend of high school and work. And we were being held hostage by terrorists, wearing soldier gear and carrying assualt rifles and yelling in languages I'm unfamiliar with. They had hijacked us between the bus and the door of the fortress type institution. They had us corralled together while they attempted to saw through the 3-story high gate. First we were scared, but then they didn't seem to hurt anyone who wasn't trying to enter the building or escape, so we just chilled, waiting for them to gain entry into the building, to get what they wanted, then we could all go home. But right before waking up, I started to believe they wouldn't just let us go. They were planning on killing us all as soon as they opened the building. A few people had decided to escape out the back (they were holding us in an area that was between two doors -- the facility had a medieval type feel to it, with wooden drawbridge-type structures and dusty roads), and I never heard any guns fired, so I assumed they made it out. I found MelRo in the bleachers where most people were sitting, and tried to talk to her about what should we do. Should we try to leave now? Should we try to escape after they open the door? I was scared to make a decision, scared it would be the wrong decision, and that it would cost me not only my life but hers as well.
When I woke up, my adrenaline was flowing, and I wanted to fall back asleep and finish the 'exercise', but only if I could think of the obvious choice in the clear light of waking life. But of course, there was no obvious answer, so I didn't go back to sleep.
Yesterday was such a long tortuous day at work with no clear discernible reason, other than lots of things needing to get done because of my absence on Monday and the brief pushing my schedule back another day. But I survived, and last night Damon and I commiserated about our mutual orca busy days at Clarke's. Shortly after, I went home and fell into bed. Going to bed when excessively exhausted can feel so wonderful, but I always struggle with the phenomenon of being "too tired to fall asleep".
Certain songs seem to never lose their freshness to me. No matter how old or recent but with numerous times I've heard it. I can still be moved, or sad, or elated when I hear them. Sometimes it's the performer, sometimes it's the song itself, because I love multiple cover versions of the song. So hear are my current top 10 examples of songs in this category, for my life right now:
10. Never Gonna Give You Up -- Barry White (or Lisa Stansfield even)
9. Time -- Pink Floyd
8. Stolen Car -- Beth Orton
7. I Want You -- Marvin Gaye
6. One More Chance (remix) -- Biggie
5. You Don't Have To Say You Love Me -- Dusty Springfield (maybe even the Cher or Tom Jones version)
4. God Only Knows -- Beach Boys
3. Waiting in Vain -- Bob Marley (or Annie Lennox)
2. Tangled Up In Blue -- Bob Dylan (Joan Baez, Indigo Girls)
1. Landslide -- either Fleetwood Mac version (Smashing Pumpkins, and I think Olivia Newton John did a cover?)
Honorable Mentions:
If I Ruled the World -- Nas
Real Love -- Mary J. Blige
Daytona 500 -- Ghostface
Candy -- Iggy Pop and Kate Pierson
No Woman No Cry -- Bob Marley
But right now I'm not listening to any of the above.
Except last night. Last night I dreamt I was in school, a strange blend of high school and work. And we were being held hostage by terrorists, wearing soldier gear and carrying assualt rifles and yelling in languages I'm unfamiliar with. They had hijacked us between the bus and the door of the fortress type institution. They had us corralled together while they attempted to saw through the 3-story high gate. First we were scared, but then they didn't seem to hurt anyone who wasn't trying to enter the building or escape, so we just chilled, waiting for them to gain entry into the building, to get what they wanted, then we could all go home. But right before waking up, I started to believe they wouldn't just let us go. They were planning on killing us all as soon as they opened the building. A few people had decided to escape out the back (they were holding us in an area that was between two doors -- the facility had a medieval type feel to it, with wooden drawbridge-type structures and dusty roads), and I never heard any guns fired, so I assumed they made it out. I found MelRo in the bleachers where most people were sitting, and tried to talk to her about what should we do. Should we try to leave now? Should we try to escape after they open the door? I was scared to make a decision, scared it would be the wrong decision, and that it would cost me not only my life but hers as well.
When I woke up, my adrenaline was flowing, and I wanted to fall back asleep and finish the 'exercise', but only if I could think of the obvious choice in the clear light of waking life. But of course, there was no obvious answer, so I didn't go back to sleep.
Yesterday was such a long tortuous day at work with no clear discernible reason, other than lots of things needing to get done because of my absence on Monday and the brief pushing my schedule back another day. But I survived, and last night Damon and I commiserated about our mutual orca busy days at Clarke's. Shortly after, I went home and fell into bed. Going to bed when excessively exhausted can feel so wonderful, but I always struggle with the phenomenon of being "too tired to fall asleep".
Certain songs seem to never lose their freshness to me. No matter how old or recent but with numerous times I've heard it. I can still be moved, or sad, or elated when I hear them. Sometimes it's the performer, sometimes it's the song itself, because I love multiple cover versions of the song. So hear are my current top 10 examples of songs in this category, for my life right now:
10. Never Gonna Give You Up -- Barry White (or Lisa Stansfield even)
9. Time -- Pink Floyd
8. Stolen Car -- Beth Orton
7. I Want You -- Marvin Gaye
6. One More Chance (remix) -- Biggie
5. You Don't Have To Say You Love Me -- Dusty Springfield (maybe even the Cher or Tom Jones version)
4. God Only Knows -- Beach Boys
3. Waiting in Vain -- Bob Marley (or Annie Lennox)
2. Tangled Up In Blue -- Bob Dylan (Joan Baez, Indigo Girls)
1. Landslide -- either Fleetwood Mac version (Smashing Pumpkins, and I think Olivia Newton John did a cover?)
Honorable Mentions:
If I Ruled the World -- Nas
Real Love -- Mary J. Blige
Daytona 500 -- Ghostface
Candy -- Iggy Pop and Kate Pierson
No Woman No Cry -- Bob Marley
But right now I'm not listening to any of the above.
