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He put his gat down, why he do that?
Jan. 17th, 2003 12:05 pmBlack Thought gets a bad rap sometimes, pun intended. It cracks me up when listening to him, because he'll use the same words or rhymes in songs, which isn't a criticism because every rapper does it. It's just that they're repeating words like "thug" and "gat" and "bling" and "hovi baby" and "this is missy elliot production" and whatnot, while he repeats words like "pediatric" and "propaganda". It's not fair that two-dollar words stick out more than the ten-cent ones of other MC's.
The twenty-five bucks I spent on a cheap boombox for my desk was the best investment in my work day. It should be a work expense I can write off. Okay, maybe it doesn't necessarily make me more productive, but my work output hasn't declined at all and my attitude is better. Plus, I'm rediscovering albums in my collection to which I never get a chance to listen. Today's rotation includes The Roots latest album mixed with Bill Evans and Angie Stone and New Order and Sigur Ros and Dusty Springfield.
I want to get my tattoo, but instead I should probably buy my plane tickets to DC before the price gets jacked up. Which is better anyway, so after True Spirit I'll go get inked with Roberto so I don't have to break my pattern of getting a tattoo with someone else there. I like the idea that those people will always be built into my life because we got tattooed at the same time. This does not mean I even necessarily would want to get tattooed with a lover (we won't even mention the topic of matching or similar tattoos because that's just ridiculous) -- partly because there's too much of a risk of negative association. Frankly, the woman I was dating when I got my bear tattoo was not too happy about the whole ordeal when she was present for some of the process. But having MFHA sitting in the chair next to me and later listening sympathetically when I bitched about said girlfriend's behavior makes up for the experience. And sure, twenty years from now I will possibly not be in any sort of contact with people, but I'll think of them fondly and presently.
I don't like to hold on to friendships tightly. I don't like static relationships with friends. I like the process of growing closer and changing dynamics and while I might not always enjoy the drifting apart, I'm not opposed to us both growing as people and having different needs and just having life change in such a way that we don't hang out or talk as much. I'm not talking about lame excuses for not calling people back -- I'm talking about the slow nearly imperceptible change that happens over months and years and usually I don't notice until it's too late to do anything about it.
But for some reason I have difficulty holding this standard to people I date. Not because I don't want it in theory, but more because I'm programmed differently, and I'm not always sure how to re-program. I initially thought it was a trial and error issue -- I just needed more experience to figure things out, but now I'm not so sure.
To quote numerous high school teachers, I think I need an attitude adjustment.
The twenty-five bucks I spent on a cheap boombox for my desk was the best investment in my work day. It should be a work expense I can write off. Okay, maybe it doesn't necessarily make me more productive, but my work output hasn't declined at all and my attitude is better. Plus, I'm rediscovering albums in my collection to which I never get a chance to listen. Today's rotation includes The Roots latest album mixed with Bill Evans and Angie Stone and New Order and Sigur Ros and Dusty Springfield.
I want to get my tattoo, but instead I should probably buy my plane tickets to DC before the price gets jacked up. Which is better anyway, so after True Spirit I'll go get inked with Roberto so I don't have to break my pattern of getting a tattoo with someone else there. I like the idea that those people will always be built into my life because we got tattooed at the same time. This does not mean I even necessarily would want to get tattooed with a lover (we won't even mention the topic of matching or similar tattoos because that's just ridiculous) -- partly because there's too much of a risk of negative association. Frankly, the woman I was dating when I got my bear tattoo was not too happy about the whole ordeal when she was present for some of the process. But having MFHA sitting in the chair next to me and later listening sympathetically when I bitched about said girlfriend's behavior makes up for the experience. And sure, twenty years from now I will possibly not be in any sort of contact with people, but I'll think of them fondly and presently.
I don't like to hold on to friendships tightly. I don't like static relationships with friends. I like the process of growing closer and changing dynamics and while I might not always enjoy the drifting apart, I'm not opposed to us both growing as people and having different needs and just having life change in such a way that we don't hang out or talk as much. I'm not talking about lame excuses for not calling people back -- I'm talking about the slow nearly imperceptible change that happens over months and years and usually I don't notice until it's too late to do anything about it.
But for some reason I have difficulty holding this standard to people I date. Not because I don't want it in theory, but more because I'm programmed differently, and I'm not always sure how to re-program. I initially thought it was a trial and error issue -- I just needed more experience to figure things out, but now I'm not so sure.
To quote numerous high school teachers, I think I need an attitude adjustment.
