Something I can't see interrupts the current

This morning I thought, I want to hear Aimee Mann's 'This is How It Goes', so I clicked on a playlist of all Aimee Mann that's set on shuffle and just hit 'play' and it was the first song to come on. My question is, was I psychic that it would come up and that's why my brain thought I wanted to hear it, or did my desire to hear it send out psychic waves that induced the jukebox to follow my desire? Or was it a simple 1 in 50 chance that came true on this Sunday morning that feels much earlier since I only slept about five hours. I didn't mean to. I didn't mean to wake up, I just did and my left foot was on fire because a corner of sunlight was streaming through a gap in the blinds. I also had dreams of fire and apartments burning down, a strange mix of the vigil candles we currently have burning and a plot line from the first season of Six Feet Under I'm watching. Yesterday I got a call from the smartypants guy I interviewed with last week and just hearing the message made my skin crawl which is never a good sign about starting a job and last night at the bar it was confirmed that I'm not being reckless when JR adamantly affirmed that there's nothing wrong with not taking a job that doesn't feel right and isn't what I want to be doing, just for the sake of money (not even close good money, for the work he wants), saying 'that's what you left, don't go back.' If he wanted to pay actual money for the skills, it might be worth it, but I'm not going be an administrative assistant / web designer / development coordinator for a lousy ten bucks an hour and not for a cause I'm not particularly excited or thrilled. I mean, I'll work for free on my own writing or on planning the church I want to take over to start a gallery/performance space/artist's colony/literary journal, but that's different than sending solicitation letters to commercial real estate people to convince them to hire him to do lobbying. Wait, why am I still talking about this? I've obviously made the decision. Oh, because I have to call him back and I don't want to and it's actually a little tempting to just not do it. But that's highly unprofessional and rude and inconsiderate and don't worry, I'm just procrastinating a little, I'll do it.

And here ends my sleepy early sunday morning free association post. I can't decide if I should attempt the mid-morning nap, or just give up sleeping and maybe exercise and make coffee and start some semblance of a day. Will report back later on the decision.