raybear | Oct. 22nd, 2007

Monday is the day when I would go back and fill in details from the weekend but I've been disoriented and with headache all day. When DYA left for work at 6:30, a bit earlier than usual, but not by much, I was supremely confused as to why she was leaving the house in the middle of the night. I got up and realized the time and my head hurt. Sinuses? Not enough sleep? Too much sleep? I took some tylenol and half of me felt like I had insomnia, that I was up in the middle of the night because it was that dark out. The other half was trying to wake up. The headache tipped the scales, I went back to sleep and woke up again at 9. Except then I felt like I was ripped awake in the middle of a REM cycle. I got up, but I felt so exhausted. Finally managed to pull on some running pants and my favorite hoodie sweater, wrote a little bit, then left the house and walked up to Albany Park. I was feeling okay, even in the cold rainy fog of a Monday morning, I had my ipod plugged in, I was moving, and most importantly, I had the hood pulled up around my head, which is currently one of my favorite sensations. When I had a cold two weeks ago, I wore this hoodie, with the hood up, for two days straight, even inside the house while watching tv. After retrieving the car and driving to the grocery store, I came home and the headache was coming back. Oh yeah, I haven't had caffeine today. Oh, I'm hungry. I made delicious impromptu soup with chicken stock and wide noodles and peas and dropped an egg in. I had soft thick french bread with butter. I drank water. The headache got worse. I put an ice pack, I took naproxen. I napped. I contemplated calling in sick to work, it was that bad. I took another naproxen and a super super hot shower. It felt amazing. By this time my brain had been constantly trying to asses the cause for several hours and it was tired, it didn't care how or why, it just wanted it to stop. I got to the office and took two advil. Finally, all the pills kicked in, but I can still tell I have a headache, if that makes sense. Like when you have a cold and you take tons of medication for the symptoms, but there's still something off.

And I'm left with less interesting thoughts about the world then I had over the weekend when I was hanging out with