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I just listened to a voicemail message from home. It started off with "Today, YOUR dog did....." and then followed with a list of things she's eaten off the table. She has been acting out lots lately in this manner of eating people food off the table (or digging gross things out of the garbage), and feeling really bad about it, because when we come home, rather than an exuberant, desperate pup jumping on us, she has self-crated. Seriously. Its eerie to open the door and nothing is there. You go in the bedroom and she's sitting there in the cage, looking up and waiting for us to say something in a soothing voice. My dog has shame issues. I know why she is acting out. We haven't been on a real walk in over a week. I have been constantly out of the house. And when I'm there, I'm asleep or reclined while icing myslef. She hasn't even gotten a kong-meal in a week. She is bored and restless and feeling unloved. I don't blame her, though it is sort of annoying. At least I know how to fix it and it won't take too much effort.
Also annoying is that one of my favorite co-workers (there's only two really) has been laid off. Not just her, but the entire department she's in. It will now be outsourced to some other company that specializes in office services. Its been a fairly dramatic business here in the office, but for me it just seems like kind of a dumb move for morale, as well as personally mildly annoying to my daily routine.
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vfc would probably be if she was in my place. I'm going back tomorrow for more. What if I become a person addicted to the chiropractor? Oh well. This is maybe only bad if insurance stops paying.
In therapy, today we had to process the fact that I learned over the weekend that a very good friend of mine is also good friends with him. This information has never come up, we have never crossed paths, even though this mutual person has known both of us for 6+ years. It was mostly hilarious and better to learn it the way I did, and not while actually at a party or something. Also, during part of the session he was sort of making a list about things I've been doing, ways that I'm in a much better place that a year ago, even 6 months ago, and he's like "I'm not really into rewards or whatever, but it wouldn't hurt to do something nice for yourself to recognize this and be nice to yourself." Now, I've been trying to move away from monetary/consuming as a reward, or if I do, its more like, hey, I was going to buy a bottle of wine anyway, why don't I try something a little nicer? Or, I need some more lip balm because I'm out and tired of using my pinky finger to apply it and I have no Stevie Nicks coke spoons handy, so why not get a nice kind and not just generic version of chapstick? I was actually doing the latter today, while downtown before work, and then I decided to breeze through Filene's Basement because I maybe need one or two more sweaters at some point this winter, and I'm trying to decide on which style I want. While investivating, on the 40% off clearance rack, I found this. I call it my Congratulations For (Currently) Winning The War Against Depression award.
( the next time you see me, I could be wearing..... )
Also annoying is that one of my favorite co-workers (there's only two really) has been laid off. Not just her, but the entire department she's in. It will now be outsourced to some other company that specializes in office services. Its been a fairly dramatic business here in the office, but for me it just seems like kind of a dumb move for morale, as well as personally mildly annoying to my daily routine.
The back is better, but not great. I went back today and got more vibrating electrodes. The music wasn't as good -- Sting's greatest hits, I believe, and for some reason all I could think about is how miserable
vfc would probably be if she was in my place. I'm going back tomorrow for more. What if I become a person addicted to the chiropractor? Oh well. This is maybe only bad if insurance stops paying. In therapy, today we had to process the fact that I learned over the weekend that a very good friend of mine is also good friends with him. This information has never come up, we have never crossed paths, even though this mutual person has known both of us for 6+ years. It was mostly hilarious and better to learn it the way I did, and not while actually at a party or something. Also, during part of the session he was sort of making a list about things I've been doing, ways that I'm in a much better place that a year ago, even 6 months ago, and he's like "I'm not really into rewards or whatever, but it wouldn't hurt to do something nice for yourself to recognize this and be nice to yourself." Now, I've been trying to move away from monetary/consuming as a reward, or if I do, its more like, hey, I was going to buy a bottle of wine anyway, why don't I try something a little nicer? Or, I need some more lip balm because I'm out and tired of using my pinky finger to apply it and I have no Stevie Nicks coke spoons handy, so why not get a nice kind and not just generic version of chapstick? I was actually doing the latter today, while downtown before work, and then I decided to breeze through Filene's Basement because I maybe need one or two more sweaters at some point this winter, and I'm trying to decide on which style I want. While investivating, on the 40% off clearance rack, I found this. I call it my Congratulations For (Currently) Winning The War Against Depression award.
( the next time you see me, I could be wearing..... )
