A skull cap?
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raybearSo I solidified my lunch date with Darryl. For some reason he cracks me up when I talk to him on the phone, and it's not because he's cracking jokes. There's just something about his demeanor that makes me laugh -- he's so sort of forward and direct and matter-of-fact, like we didn't just meet randomly through a newspaper. I like it. It feels better than the typical routine of personal ads -- it's more like we met at a party or something.
I spoke on the phone with Bill on my way to United to pick up one of the attorneys' plane ticket. He's very friendly and chatty, more so than I originally thought. He asked about me being bisexual and if I had a girlfriend, so the cat's out of the bag on that one and I feel quite relieved. He mentioned that he felt the same way when he was my age, but he hasn't had sex with women in years and hasn't missed it. I told him I wasn't afraid of "going gay" but I didn't feel compelled to force myself into that category if it's not true. He also asked if I enjoyed sex with men. I said yes. Is that a lie? I mean, I want to enjoy sex with men. I think about having enjoyable sex with men. But I haven't exactly had enjoyable sex with men. Yet.
I don't think it's a lie.
He later mentioned his penchant for honesty. Complete honesty at all times and whatnot. Hmmm. Guess this means I shouldn't hold out on the trans thing for too long. I've also decided to not make it such a big deal -- don't do the whole "I have something serious to tell you and I hope you won't be upset...." which automatically puts the other person on freak-out alert and also shapes it as some sort of horrible condition. But if I'm casual and open and just say something like "have I mentioned my cock isn't attached to my body? no? well, it does" then move on and it's fine. I'm not lying about being a queer man -- I AM a queer man. Why do I forget that sometimes? Maybe because I don't go around all day thinking about what a guy I am.
I think by Sunday I'm going to be socially exhausted and will spend the day in bed.
I'm also thinking about going up to Milwaukee with Riley on Saturday evening for the Forge meeting. Either with MelRo's car if she approves or by some other route. It might be a good way to rejuvenate after my complete immersion into officially dating men. I love how I go from 0-60 in 3 days.
Oh, and speaking of gay men, I had a fabulous conversation with a co-worker from the New York office. More people to go out with when I'm in the city!
I spoke on the phone with Bill on my way to United to pick up one of the attorneys' plane ticket. He's very friendly and chatty, more so than I originally thought. He asked about me being bisexual and if I had a girlfriend, so the cat's out of the bag on that one and I feel quite relieved. He mentioned that he felt the same way when he was my age, but he hasn't had sex with women in years and hasn't missed it. I told him I wasn't afraid of "going gay" but I didn't feel compelled to force myself into that category if it's not true. He also asked if I enjoyed sex with men. I said yes. Is that a lie? I mean, I want to enjoy sex with men. I think about having enjoyable sex with men. But I haven't exactly had enjoyable sex with men. Yet.
I don't think it's a lie.
He later mentioned his penchant for honesty. Complete honesty at all times and whatnot. Hmmm. Guess this means I shouldn't hold out on the trans thing for too long. I've also decided to not make it such a big deal -- don't do the whole "I have something serious to tell you and I hope you won't be upset...." which automatically puts the other person on freak-out alert and also shapes it as some sort of horrible condition. But if I'm casual and open and just say something like "have I mentioned my cock isn't attached to my body? no? well, it does" then move on and it's fine. I'm not lying about being a queer man -- I AM a queer man. Why do I forget that sometimes? Maybe because I don't go around all day thinking about what a guy I am.
I think by Sunday I'm going to be socially exhausted and will spend the day in bed.
I'm also thinking about going up to Milwaukee with Riley on Saturday evening for the Forge meeting. Either with MelRo's car if she approves or by some other route. It might be a good way to rejuvenate after my complete immersion into officially dating men. I love how I go from 0-60 in 3 days.
Oh, and speaking of gay men, I had a fabulous conversation with a co-worker from the New York office. More people to go out with when I'm in the city!
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Date: 2002-10-29 02:32 pm (UTC)Now I have the damn song "Detachable Penis" stuck in my head.
God I hate you.
(not really)
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Date: 2002-10-29 08:19 pm (UTC)you should make me a mix with that song on it. and maybe some ladytron. what can i do to convince you to make it so?
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Date: 2002-10-29 09:13 pm (UTC)