Now, I'm guilty of something I hope you never do

[raybear]

Strange as it may sound, I've been bonding well with Sophie in the past day or so. I think she's confused by my state of mind lately -- being home but feeling disconnected and not paying attention to her. She initially acted out a bit, between the sleeping far away and being randomly bark-y when I don't play with her toys the right way, but now she seems to be watching me more closely and following my lead. In the car, she's positively brilliant. Today she even communicated to me in a calm non-aggressive way that she really wanted to be left out so she could sleep in the chair and stay by the window all day, so I didn't crate her. Of course, all of this theorizing might get shot to hell when I go home and find something destroyed and the floor soiled, though (knock on wood) she's done nothing of the sort since I've returned from vacation.

I'm finding the desire to write more about my relationship with the dog, but I'll save that for another place.

I finally finally had dinner last night with herownsociety after many many promises of making it happen. I knew we would be true to our word, it's just hard when you're both busy people. I had a fabulous time, though I must confess a little while afterwards I felt a bit self-conscious and wondered if I was hypocritical when I rallied about people who talk in monologues since I can sometimes be a one-man show myself when I get excited. But hopefully she felt like we were dialoguing sufficiently.

At Nookie's we stopped by the table of freakysparks and KLV for a brief visit, and I commissioned Sparky to help me make money with my new computer by starting an online porn site that sells amateur DVDs I'll soon be able to burn. She suggested my website be called "Spraybear". Oh my. I was literally on the floor laughing.

At this time, I'd like to plug an event where I'll be tomorrow night. Stalk with care.



Celebrate Pride with queer hip-hop recording artists, God-des and Tina G.!!!

Saturday June 14th, 9:00pm
New Venue: Independant Video Alliance
7009 N. Glenwood
$5 donation (no one turned away for lack of funds)
ALL AGES!!!

Also featuring:
*Chris Piss from Three Dollar Bill
performing a queer punk rock solo auccoustic set!
*Betsy Chainsaw, aka Mistress Carmen Li, aka Natalie from Apartment, performance/spoken word artist, pro-domme, burlesque performer, alternative porn star and anarchist.

Hosted by:
*Ravenous Gorge, aka Mistress Minax
professional dominatrix, performance artist, peep show barker, activist, alternative porn star.

After show spinning by:
*DJ BoyWonder, aka Raymond
show some love for the dj and dance your sexy ass off!

Benefit for unboundbooks.org!
[Online/mailorder books, zines and music with a radical, queer, trans, feminist, anarchist focus. Future plans for a collectively-run, worker-owned bookstore, resource center and community space are in the works.]

For more info on God-Des check out:
http://www.god-des.com/
http://www.gayhiphop.com/


And, I'm still bent on writing a short story called "Five Seconds to Seduction" about meeting Hillary Clinton at a book-signing. You've been warned.

Comments

[joey-g.livejournal.com]

Are you going to be around Andersonville Days this weekend?

[raybear.livejournal.com]

I hadn't planned on it, yet I often accidentally stumble into those things despite my better judgment. I'm not a big fan of crowds, which means I don't go to many of the street festivals.

Re:

[joey-g.livejournal.com]

Ah.. I can understand how you feel on this subject. I hate festivals, street deals and the works.. I just happen to be going with the ball and chain at my feet.
oh well.

god-des

[louche.livejournal.com]

i'm sad i'm going to have to miss this event, but tomorrow is just slammed with graduation parties and rehearsals and blah, blah. i've known god-des from my madison, wi days. long ago. well, not that long. i left there in '98. anyway, she used to live downstairs from my first girlfriend and me. she was all of 19 and just starting college when i first met her. she'd always burst into my apartment belting out biggie or lil kim or whoever she was listening to. ahh, those were the days.

anyway, if you think of it and get the chance, please tell her hello and that i'm sorry i couldn't make it.

and i hope you have fun!

[herownsociety.livejournal.com]

no worries, we were most definitely dialoguing. ;)

and, yesyes, very fun times--i'm glad we made it happen.

and when i talk about people who speak in monologues vs. dialogues, it also has to do with that energy thing i was trying to explain last night. something that i can't quite put my finger on, but sometimes it's still a dialogue, even if i'm just listening. hmmm. i think that, besides energy, a lot of times it has to do with whether someone is just spewing information at you vs. telling you something *you* are genuinely wanting to hear about.

[raybear.livejournal.com]

I definitely feel you on the energy thing. Sometimes it's a history thing too -- like you know how we were talking about people who ask you questions than their eyes start wandering and they seem completely bored and disinterested? I was thinking today about how a good friend of mine does the exact same thing, but it just amuses me. That's because I know her and don't take it personally and she's proven to me that she does actually hear what I'm saying, even if her eyes stray. So sometimes it's just about getting used to people's body language and behavior and not making assumptions.

I loved all the stuff we talked about last night! I rarely get to discuss such random things with people.