Pitiful.

[raybear]

For some reason yesterday and today, more than any other time in the past week, I've been feeling more heartsick and lonely. Not in a real tragic or depressing way. But more in the way that produces bad poetry and cheesy Hallmark cards. I'm just straight up missing her. And I feel lame for it. But whatever. I should stop comparing my situation with others as a means of making myself feel better, because it doesn't work and its pointless. I can't read the newspaper and search for horrible stories and then say to myself "well it could be worse -- I could be in some war-torn country". I can't even compare my feelings and situations to other friends and acquaintances. It's not fair to me nor is it respectful to them. Microcosm, macrocosm. Apples and oranges. Whatever.

I made a Mark Eitzel best of mixtape last night. Or more of a retrospective, really. Perhaps that's why I'm fcked up. He's such a dark and meloncholy singer, but that's part of why I love him.

I admire Joe's resistance to the survey. And I propose that we band together a create a new super LJ survey. Anyone can contribute between 5-10 questions, then we'll all post it as one long survey. The goal is to spread it all over LJ. The survey to end all surveys.....

I volunteer myself as compiler if anyone's interested -- send me your questions!

[But for now, back to "regular" work....]