raybear | It's one of my faults that I can't quell my past.

The best part of my day so far, by an absolute landslide, was lunch with

magdalene1. But even though the competition was nonexistent, it's still helpful to have a bright spot in the day.

I had a strange near-anxiety attack when I returned to my desk but it's passed or at least the emotions are manageable rather than overwhelming. I spared my livejournal readers from the details, and trust me your better off. Just imagine a long rambling uncapitalized nonpunctuated overanalysis of my occasional "Stevie Nicks Syndrome" (stay away, come closer!). I also made a somewhat scary realization about how much time I spend with people, or at least specific people. Or at least psychologically speaking.

Oh, never mind.

thebrownhornet was kind to offer a bit of assistance to me tonight and right now I've assigned him the task of "keeping me sane" while I throw away boxes and sweep dustbunnies off the ceiling and scrub the bathroom and generally run around like a contestant on Supermarket Sweep. Seriously, that's how I'm feeling. I have this crazed "beat the clock" mentality about this task, which is pretty much par for the course for me when it comes to cleaning up apartments I'm leaving. Usually because it's midnight on the 31st. This time it's just because I want to be done as soon as possible. My energy is just too spread out right now, basically with thoughts on three apartments (the new one, the old one, and

dommeyourass's which will be joining the new one). I'll be happy to eliminate one.

I'm also trying to not have too high of expectations about tomorrow morning when the two utility folks come to my house to solve all my problems and make my life miraculously better. I mean, turn on my gas and phone. At least I hope that's what they'll do. We are talking about People's Energy and SBC here, not exactly the inventors of competency. If nothing else, I suppose it means I can sleep in and get some unpacking done while waiting.

Also, Next-Door CoWorker now believes I have a disability because I no longer have cable. "What are you going to do about the VMAs tomorrow night?!?"