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raybearI wish I could remember what I did last night other than have sex, especially since that really only took up the time while my brown rice was cooking. Things obviously happened in the four hours between that and Lowenstein coming home and us going to bed to be all talkative and lovey, but I can't remember. I think I downloaded some porn. I think I also did my new unintentional favorite hobby which is shop online for unneeded products, then right as I've filled the cart and finalized my selections, I suddenly realize I shouldn't be spending the money and close the browser window.
Oh, I did write 500 words on my nanowrimo project. I'm a obviously little behind on the word count this year. But this morning in the shower I was thinking about my characters and the opening sequence and experimental idea for the narrative when I suddenly got a big bolt of inspiration. The kind that makes me laugh out loud. Have other experienced this?
Occasionally my laughter is inappropriate, such as when I'm nervous or anxious or upset. Sometimes it's just unexpected, like laughing orgasms. But I often feel laughter bubble up and explode suddenly when bursts of creativity break into my brain, either my own idea or even consuming someone else's piece. I've laughed while standing in front of paintings in museums and during performances and while reading books. It's hard to explain why, so I usually don't, I just shrug my shoulders and move on.
Lately I laugh when I think of my new favorite thing that someone in my life does but I'm afraid to tell them about it because it might effect how and why they do it. I don't want to taint or effect it all, because I love it so much. I don't even want to say it outloud to people who will never know what I'm talking about, so I'll just constantly grin to myself and see how long I can hold the secret.
Last night I did a tarot reading for Lowenstein and she asked about why I shuffle the cards for her reading and have her deal the cards for mine, rather than us touching our own, and I talked about it mostly being about personal style and how one channels. I then proceeded to give her a reading where in some ways I was clouded and getting mixed images coming from all her overthinking on the situation, basically channelling her in addition to the universe, and then she managed to have clear insights and clarity of vision on the situation through the cards. But hey, whatever works. Interestingly enough we both had exact same opening card -- reversed two of pentacles.
Oh, I did write 500 words on my nanowrimo project. I'm a obviously little behind on the word count this year. But this morning in the shower I was thinking about my characters and the opening sequence and experimental idea for the narrative when I suddenly got a big bolt of inspiration. The kind that makes me laugh out loud. Have other experienced this?
Occasionally my laughter is inappropriate, such as when I'm nervous or anxious or upset. Sometimes it's just unexpected, like laughing orgasms. But I often feel laughter bubble up and explode suddenly when bursts of creativity break into my brain, either my own idea or even consuming someone else's piece. I've laughed while standing in front of paintings in museums and during performances and while reading books. It's hard to explain why, so I usually don't, I just shrug my shoulders and move on.
Lately I laugh when I think of my new favorite thing that someone in my life does but I'm afraid to tell them about it because it might effect how and why they do it. I don't want to taint or effect it all, because I love it so much. I don't even want to say it outloud to people who will never know what I'm talking about, so I'll just constantly grin to myself and see how long I can hold the secret.
Last night I did a tarot reading for Lowenstein and she asked about why I shuffle the cards for her reading and have her deal the cards for mine, rather than us touching our own, and I talked about it mostly being about personal style and how one channels. I then proceeded to give her a reading where in some ways I was clouded and getting mixed images coming from all her overthinking on the situation, basically channelling her in addition to the universe, and then she managed to have clear insights and clarity of vision on the situation through the cards. But hey, whatever works. Interestingly enough we both had exact same opening card -- reversed two of pentacles.
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hey!
Date: 2003-11-05 10:28 am (UTC)Re: hey!
Date: 2003-11-05 10:31 am (UTC)further clarification
Date: 2003-11-05 10:41 am (UTC)oh, and i still stand by what i saw. i mean, i'm not saying "i know it's going to happen this way", but i cleary had this vision of you being influential (even if not intentionally) in the "other situation" coming to a head/ending.
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Date: 2003-11-05 10:47 am (UTC)Shower ideas are usually the best ideas for me, I've found.
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Date: 2003-11-06 09:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-06 09:12 am (UTC)