raybear | I am not permanent

Omg,

hissyfit wins a special prize.

I came home and there was a puffy envelope in the mail and inside was a CD and a zine and a handwritten note and this amazing ring that looks like a crown and says "KING", and I was so giggly and elated and thought, why is she sending me this great package? Oh yeah, cause I asked for it. Haha. Thank you, V, for being the first one to arrive! And I've decided to wear the ring every day from now until my birthday, or wait, maybe everyday until I get back from my birthday day trip to SF. Its my birthday fortnight and I will love people as hard as I want.

I called my father back and left a message on his voicemail and it was No Big Deal, which is sort of a big deal. I e-mailed a former mentor of mine I haven't spoken to in a year who's been on my mind. I also googled an old friend I hadn't talked to in awhile and sent her an e-mail and she wrote me back an hour later. Oh, and I finally joined GoodReads.

My impromptu funeral-of-one this morning felt really good. I had a little turning point today, I think, that I've been sort of carrying around this stone I didn't know what to do with, and now its broken up a bit. The hard stuff is still there, no doubt, but it's less blocking. Water can't go through a boulder but it can seep through the bucket of rocks.