I think they're onto me.
Feb. 10th, 2008 10:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybearI spent all of last week exceedingly anxious. I thought it was cabin fever, SAD, lots of snow, etc. etc., but then finally on Friday I realized, wait, I started feeling depressed early in the week, so I took more SAMe in the morning and I think that was perhaps what was messing me up. So I was still immobile and paralyzed, but not out of lethargy or feeling down, but from jittery reeling mind and inability to concentrate or focus. I went back to regular dosage on Friday and I've been better since. Then again, it was also the weekend, which might have helped.
It has still been a high anxiety weekend in the house, because DYA is doing her first closing argument for a jury trial, but we are surviving. We vegged out on Friday, then on Saturday I went on another date with Cupcakes Malone while she stayed home to work. It was another frigid day here, so of course it is all over the news, during every conversation, and effects random planning because of abilities to get out of icy parking spot or whether the trip is long enough that the key will be able to come out of the ignition.
On Friday night we watched six, SIX, episodes in a row of Friday Night Lights. I normally can't do that many in a row, after 4 I start to get agitated or asleep. But this time I hardly noticed. And now I"m all sad that its over and I miss the characters. On Saturday morning we watched The Lives of Others and I know I'm in the minority for the most part, but I thought it wasn't very good. I mean, it was well made and well acted and well executed, but there were plotholes I could walk through plus I found that structurally the movie was really sexist, which I wasn't really expecting at all - especially since I heard so many good things and was looking forward to it.
- I didn't feel like they laid the groundwork for why the main character got so involved in these people's lives and put his lifelong career at risk. I mean, I have inklings, as far perhaps he'd never been exposed to art or literature or the passion of beliefs, and that's probably it, but the jump seemed a little fast for someone who was a supposed expert in the field.
- What was the gf's illegal medication? What was her condition? They never explained it, and that feels problematic, because was it something serious and debilitating which would add to her fears of being captured/tortured, etc.; or was it a 'hysteria' or valium; or was it she had a drug problem/addiction? It was vague critical information that never got fully explained and just got pulled out randomly to advance random plot points.
- The Minister guy orders the Stasi guy to arrest her and question her and to never let her on stage again, but then seconds later he's like, oh, be an informant and I'll let you perform again. Ok, I realize now that he was probably lying to get her to turn over information. Nevermind on that point. Although, why did he give her medicine then as a perk, if he was going to just turn around and go back on his word? I mean, she was on her way home anyway. Still kinda weak link there.
- BUT, why the hell did she turn over SO quickly? With no hesitations? Because her career is so important to her that she will betray her lover? Wtf? Especially given she KNEW when she stopped sleeping with the Minister because 'Lazlo' asked her too, she knew there was a risk of arrest, not acting, etc. This woman was fcking trading sex for safety, and it was fcking her up, but she could do it, could find that hard place to make it happen, and yet, she caved in a second when confronted by the Stasi? It emotionally made no sense to me, I felt like they just made her 'weak' because she was a woman, there was no explanation. Then instead of making it right and telling Laslo, they have the agent save him by moving the typewriter. Because she's too weak (she's a woman!). Then the only way to redeem herself is to run outside and commit suicide. Know why? Cause she's weak. Cause she's a woman. And trading sex for safety doesn't count and if she was strong she'd stand up for principles, its not a real commitment like writing an essay.
Ok, I'm being snarky, and its just because I like the idea behind the movie, about making art as a political act, of being political while making art, while resisting, and all that good stuff, but it got ruined by creating a hierarchy of what is REAL art and what is strength. And of course both of those things belong only to men. We only have one woman in the whole movie and then we kill her.
I'm sure lots of people disagree or didn't see that or feel that way, but oh well, lucky me, I guess.
Was it just me or were the Grammys weirdly awesome this year? I turned them on at the very beginning, thinking they would occupy 10 minutes while eating dinner, and I stayed for the entire 3 1/2 hours.
It has still been a high anxiety weekend in the house, because DYA is doing her first closing argument for a jury trial, but we are surviving. We vegged out on Friday, then on Saturday I went on another date with Cupcakes Malone while she stayed home to work. It was another frigid day here, so of course it is all over the news, during every conversation, and effects random planning because of abilities to get out of icy parking spot or whether the trip is long enough that the key will be able to come out of the ignition.
On Friday night we watched six, SIX, episodes in a row of Friday Night Lights. I normally can't do that many in a row, after 4 I start to get agitated or asleep. But this time I hardly noticed. And now I"m all sad that its over and I miss the characters. On Saturday morning we watched The Lives of Others and I know I'm in the minority for the most part, but I thought it wasn't very good. I mean, it was well made and well acted and well executed, but there were plotholes I could walk through plus I found that structurally the movie was really sexist, which I wasn't really expecting at all - especially since I heard so many good things and was looking forward to it.
- I didn't feel like they laid the groundwork for why the main character got so involved in these people's lives and put his lifelong career at risk. I mean, I have inklings, as far perhaps he'd never been exposed to art or literature or the passion of beliefs, and that's probably it, but the jump seemed a little fast for someone who was a supposed expert in the field.
- What was the gf's illegal medication? What was her condition? They never explained it, and that feels problematic, because was it something serious and debilitating which would add to her fears of being captured/tortured, etc.; or was it a 'hysteria' or valium; or was it she had a drug problem/addiction? It was vague critical information that never got fully explained and just got pulled out randomly to advance random plot points.
- The Minister guy orders the Stasi guy to arrest her and question her and to never let her on stage again, but then seconds later he's like, oh, be an informant and I'll let you perform again. Ok, I realize now that he was probably lying to get her to turn over information. Nevermind on that point. Although, why did he give her medicine then as a perk, if he was going to just turn around and go back on his word? I mean, she was on her way home anyway. Still kinda weak link there.
- BUT, why the hell did she turn over SO quickly? With no hesitations? Because her career is so important to her that she will betray her lover? Wtf? Especially given she KNEW when she stopped sleeping with the Minister because 'Lazlo' asked her too, she knew there was a risk of arrest, not acting, etc. This woman was fcking trading sex for safety, and it was fcking her up, but she could do it, could find that hard place to make it happen, and yet, she caved in a second when confronted by the Stasi? It emotionally made no sense to me, I felt like they just made her 'weak' because she was a woman, there was no explanation. Then instead of making it right and telling Laslo, they have the agent save him by moving the typewriter. Because she's too weak (she's a woman!). Then the only way to redeem herself is to run outside and commit suicide. Know why? Cause she's weak. Cause she's a woman. And trading sex for safety doesn't count and if she was strong she'd stand up for principles, its not a real commitment like writing an essay.
Ok, I'm being snarky, and its just because I like the idea behind the movie, about making art as a political act, of being political while making art, while resisting, and all that good stuff, but it got ruined by creating a hierarchy of what is REAL art and what is strength. And of course both of those things belong only to men. We only have one woman in the whole movie and then we kill her.
I'm sure lots of people disagree or didn't see that or feel that way, but oh well, lucky me, I guess.
Was it just me or were the Grammys weirdly awesome this year? I turned them on at the very beginning, thinking they would occupy 10 minutes while eating dinner, and I stayed for the entire 3 1/2 hours.
