raybear | Would you still love me if I put Jewel's 'Foolish Games' on a mixtape?

Last night I had a dream that someone called our apartment at 11:30 pm, and MelRo answered the phone. At first I thought it was someone she knew, because she was talking to them really sweetly and seemed to be advising them on some sort of a problem. I had been asleep when the phone rang, sort of fell in and out of sleep while she was talking, then when she hung up, I struggled to wake up enough to ask who was on the phone and why were they calling so late? She told me the phone was for me. I was like, what do you mean? Who was it? And she said it was a harasser who was calling to threaten me physically and harass me for being trans and threaten to out me to everyone I knew and people I didn't who would beat me up for being trans. I thought she was kidding. But she said that she gets calls like that ALL THE TIME and she always manages to talk the person down, and she said that usually the person seems to be dealing with some sort of other mental issue but is taking it out violently on me, and she helps them sort things out enough and they usually don't call back. So then I was confused -- there are numerous harassing callers? And she said that yes, there seems to be a whole population of people unrelated to each other who harass trans people. I was stunned. I was also confused and amazed by the fact that this had been going on for months and she was handling it and never told me about it.

So, uh...thanks darlin'.

Could this be related to my birthday today? Perhaps. This afternoon will be the exact one-year mark for hormones for me. Woo-hoo. What a long strange trip it's been. As usual, I feel more connected to the person I was 2-3 years ago than to the person one year ago. That person still seems strange and intriguing to me.

I'm on my second cup of coffee. look out!