raybear | I got issues like toilet tissues....

But whatever.

Became somewhat inspired today after having lunch with a co-worker who went to Creating Change. Slighlty rejuvenated me re: work, and there's possibility for more. I also had an interesting idea, that I haven't though out completely, but want to write down, lest I forget. The office was approved for the position of Outreach Assistant, but it got put on hold because of september 11th budget restructuring. But maybe by next spring/summer, it would be back up. So I was thinking about the possibility of working that position. It would be part-time. And maybe I could stay on insurance. I would be doing more fun stuff, like resources, talking to people, netwokring, building coalitions, etc. etc. And the rest of the time not working here I could work on music. Hmmm. So anyway, that's my random thought of the day. I'm not sure how feasible, or even if it's what I want -- maybe I'm being resistant to make a clean break. Or maybe I'm being sensible by keeping some sort of steady income. It would only pay something like $10, 000 a year, but I would probably only work 3 days/week, not even for 8 hours. And it would be better than retail as back-up income. And I could stay active. So anyway, that's my random thought for the day.

I really need to get going on my own studying. I also need to stop being scared and actually contact some recording studios in the area and talk to people. Why am I so scared to talk to people when I'm a beginner? I can't stand to just call someone up and ask them to tell me things that I don't already know. Why? I have no problems with people doing it to me. Argh. So I need to get over that. It will help when I actually complete some sections of my course and my textbook and then I will have at least some knowledge, and I can just ask questions regarding what to do with said knowledge.

Tonight is home time for real. Lots of chores to do, and I want to get started (and possibly finished) on my cocktail party invitations.