you're the best one that we've ever had
Nov. 29th, 2001 10:29 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybear1. Last night I didn't sleep so well, methinks. Lots o' teeth-grinding and feeling trapped and tied down -- mostly by blankets twisted around my legs or pajama bottoms tangled up. It's also getting very cold here, which to be honest makes me excited. And not just because I have a snazzy coat. I just like winter a lot.
2. Today I'm working the help desk. And trying valiently to stay productive.
3. Tonight Damon's coming over to watch "Office Killer". And I just got an e-mail from the infamous John of the margarita venture (date) several weeks ago asking if I would like to re-create the margarita extravaganza. I think I will invite him over to watch the movie. I also think I might not be as interested in him as anything but a buddy. Or at least not anytime soon. I'm not feeling terribly confident about my self and my body right now, so that's usually not a good time to try something new and risk-taking. My feelings actually have nothing to do with straight-up body esteem issues -- it's just that I'm overall feeling sad and introverted, because of family and holiday stuff and nostalgia and whatnot, so usually my feelings of sexual forwardness and confidence are the first to go (since they have the shakiest foundation) in a situation of withdrawl. This is not to say I'm feeling completely horrible or anything, because I'm not -- I'm just not necessarily in the best position for bravado.
So anyway, yeah.
Watching a horror movie starring Carol Kane and directed by Cindy Sherman. Yes, your dreams have come true.
4. I want to buy some poinsettias for the apartment. And string up some lights. But part of me feels compelled to wait until December 1st. Why 2 days makes a difference, I don't know.
5. I'm feeling particularly stressed about the condition of the apartment. Call it fengshui, but it's causing me anxiety. I feel blocked in and aggravated by the constant presence of improperly placed stuff and the need for cleaning and straightening. And that futon frame MUST go soon -- I feel like I'm in prison when I'm in the kitchen cooking or washing dishes. Maybe that's why I've been listening to Shyne so much on the kitchen stereo. I'm tempted to just put it back on the porch and suffer the consequences later. I also need to do laundry, straighten my music area, and get rid of all the gddamn junk mail floating around the living room/foyer area, and vacuum. But I guess I won't be doing those things tonight since people are coming over. Maybe that's how I'll spend my Friday evening though. It would save money, I suppose.
6. I'm having an allergy attack right now. Too much sneezing.
2. Today I'm working the help desk. And trying valiently to stay productive.
3. Tonight Damon's coming over to watch "Office Killer". And I just got an e-mail from the infamous John of the margarita venture (date) several weeks ago asking if I would like to re-create the margarita extravaganza. I think I will invite him over to watch the movie. I also think I might not be as interested in him as anything but a buddy. Or at least not anytime soon. I'm not feeling terribly confident about my self and my body right now, so that's usually not a good time to try something new and risk-taking. My feelings actually have nothing to do with straight-up body esteem issues -- it's just that I'm overall feeling sad and introverted, because of family and holiday stuff and nostalgia and whatnot, so usually my feelings of sexual forwardness and confidence are the first to go (since they have the shakiest foundation) in a situation of withdrawl. This is not to say I'm feeling completely horrible or anything, because I'm not -- I'm just not necessarily in the best position for bravado.
So anyway, yeah.
Watching a horror movie starring Carol Kane and directed by Cindy Sherman. Yes, your dreams have come true.
4. I want to buy some poinsettias for the apartment. And string up some lights. But part of me feels compelled to wait until December 1st. Why 2 days makes a difference, I don't know.
5. I'm feeling particularly stressed about the condition of the apartment. Call it fengshui, but it's causing me anxiety. I feel blocked in and aggravated by the constant presence of improperly placed stuff and the need for cleaning and straightening. And that futon frame MUST go soon -- I feel like I'm in prison when I'm in the kitchen cooking or washing dishes. Maybe that's why I've been listening to Shyne so much on the kitchen stereo. I'm tempted to just put it back on the porch and suffer the consequences later. I also need to do laundry, straighten my music area, and get rid of all the gddamn junk mail floating around the living room/foyer area, and vacuum. But I guess I won't be doing those things tonight since people are coming over. Maybe that's how I'll spend my Friday evening though. It would save money, I suppose.
6. I'm having an allergy attack right now. Too much sneezing.
