hopped up on coke and nowhere to go
Dec. 28th, 2001 03:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybearAt 3 pm my boss said I could go home if I wanted. Unfortunately, out of a sense of guilt but mostly obligation, I'm staying until 4 pm, so I can person the Help Desk. No one has called. It's been extremely quiet, so I don't feel too bad about leaving in the last hour.
I had an excellent lunch today with Li___. She bought me food at Zoom, and I had a salad, which I only point out because I needed something lighter after days and days of heavy rich food. Even last night, I was going to go with something light, but got a bacon cheeseburger. Hmm. Anyway, we had excellent chats, and I was reminded of the many walks I've taken with her in the past 2 years, where we'd cover miles and miles of ground on foot and in conversation. Sex, art, relationships, family. I miss having those. It's hard because we work together, and so I spend my non-work time with other friends, but sometimes I want "friend-time" with her and less work-time. I sometimes have to split my perception of her too -- sometimes she's my co-worker, sometimes she's my friend. That way when something silly and petty bugs the hell outta me at the office, I don't let it affect our conversation about her marriage or whatever. She's definitely one of those people that I had a 'difficult' relationship with, because we challenge each other so much. But ultimately that's a great thing, and I love her to death and she's family now. So I can 'hate' her sometimes and not feel like it threatens the fabric of our relationship. I can say things like "shut up! you're drivng me crazy! I love you, i'll call you tomorrow". That's pretty rare. And quite the polar opposite of my birth family.
Oh, and if you thought Myles was cool before, well wait till the book gets published and all the seedy details get revealed. I didn't think it was possible for someone to posses that much "snazz". I think it's illegal in some states, provinces and principalities.
It's nearly 4 pm which means I can leave soon. Yee-haw. I'm almost too punchy and bouncy to survive the train ride home. I need to relax some so I don't cause damage to myself.
Bu-bye!
I had an excellent lunch today with Li___. She bought me food at Zoom, and I had a salad, which I only point out because I needed something lighter after days and days of heavy rich food. Even last night, I was going to go with something light, but got a bacon cheeseburger. Hmm. Anyway, we had excellent chats, and I was reminded of the many walks I've taken with her in the past 2 years, where we'd cover miles and miles of ground on foot and in conversation. Sex, art, relationships, family. I miss having those. It's hard because we work together, and so I spend my non-work time with other friends, but sometimes I want "friend-time" with her and less work-time. I sometimes have to split my perception of her too -- sometimes she's my co-worker, sometimes she's my friend. That way when something silly and petty bugs the hell outta me at the office, I don't let it affect our conversation about her marriage or whatever. She's definitely one of those people that I had a 'difficult' relationship with, because we challenge each other so much. But ultimately that's a great thing, and I love her to death and she's family now. So I can 'hate' her sometimes and not feel like it threatens the fabric of our relationship. I can say things like "shut up! you're drivng me crazy! I love you, i'll call you tomorrow". That's pretty rare. And quite the polar opposite of my birth family.
Oh, and if you thought Myles was cool before, well wait till the book gets published and all the seedy details get revealed. I didn't think it was possible for someone to posses that much "snazz". I think it's illegal in some states, provinces and principalities.
It's nearly 4 pm which means I can leave soon. Yee-haw. I'm almost too punchy and bouncy to survive the train ride home. I need to relax some so I don't cause damage to myself.
Bu-bye!
