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raybearOne method to test if you're dreaming it to try and remember how you got where you are. For example, if you're suddenly walking on a beach but you can't remember driving to it.
I can't remember how I got where I am right now.
Not on the microcosm level -- I can remember the alarm going off, and taking a shower and picking clothes and realizing I need to laundry and hurrying to catch the train to be at work early......
But on a larger scale, I'm dreaming. I don't know how I got to this job, this desk, this lack of ambition, lack of vision. I can't remember what I was doing one year ago that led me here. Or 2 years ago. Or 3 years ago.
I feel I've been asleep for a long time, regarding certain aspects of my life. And I'm struggling to wake up because I'm not entirely happy or satisfied with how this dream is going. It's stagnant and frustrating. But I'm also scared to open my eyes and get started on real life. Maybe I'll wake up and be unable to leave my bed. Would it just be better to stay asleep then? I don't think so. But I'm not entirely confident.
I can't remember how I got where I am right now.
Not on the microcosm level -- I can remember the alarm going off, and taking a shower and picking clothes and realizing I need to laundry and hurrying to catch the train to be at work early......
But on a larger scale, I'm dreaming. I don't know how I got to this job, this desk, this lack of ambition, lack of vision. I can't remember what I was doing one year ago that led me here. Or 2 years ago. Or 3 years ago.
I feel I've been asleep for a long time, regarding certain aspects of my life. And I'm struggling to wake up because I'm not entirely happy or satisfied with how this dream is going. It's stagnant and frustrating. But I'm also scared to open my eyes and get started on real life. Maybe I'll wake up and be unable to leave my bed. Would it just be better to stay asleep then? I don't think so. But I'm not entirely confident.
