so if your friends jumped off a cliff would you follow them?

[raybear]

yes, perhaps I would.

Here's my top 10:
# User
1 limenal 93.853
2 partners_of_tg 47.991
3 nabnag 44.441
4 queer 38.739
5 faghags 38.739
6 jesseboi 37.457
7 jwitchbaby 37.085
8 meganisaloser 34.694
9 transgender 34.544
10 01flux 32.144

...and some other folks from the friend list....
15 justaboi 29.577
19 nineinchlovely 28.513
23 torreycanyon 27.085

okay, now I'm tired of cutting and pasting. Apologies to everyone else. It's funny that half of my top ten list is made up of Communities, not individuals. And the top users are my roommate/life partner and fiance. Oh, you didn't know that Myles and I were engaged? Well, it's true. And he's not hanging around LJ to dispute it.

Today has been hell as far as busy-ness. I was forced to cancel lunch, so it ended up being fortuitous that I packed a lunch. However I think my use of that word is a factoid. Or as dictionary.com occasionally puts is, a "usage problem".

I hereby ban all mis-use of factoid and fortuitous in these pages. There, that will solve it.

I managed to find the Greyhound bus station and overcome my anxiety and meet the_passives for enough time to share a beverage and a couple random stories. I apologize if I acted weird, but I'd be lying if I said that's atypical of me. I'm either "on" -- talkative, rambunctious, hilarious, and performing, or I'm on "power reserve" -- quiet, mellow, nervous, and unable to think of anything to say to save me life. And I can't usually switch from one to the other. But I liked to seeing Andrew, and I hope he knows that I meant when I said I'd like for him to stay in Chicago longer next time. We can hang out and watch cable and drink 40 oz'ers or go record shopping or whatever. Oh, and Andrew I meant to tell you that I liked your haircut, and ask if you ever got that package I sent?

Then I returned nervously, pretty much living out my dream from last night about arriving to work late. But no one noticed/cared. Just like my dream. I'm pretty sure my boss was working on my review today -- meeting with the other atty, talking to the legal dept head, re-reading my review, etc. etc. That just made me more nervous while trying to get a pile of things done by the end of the day. And I did most of it, but I never did take a real lunch break (ate at the desk), and I'll be here for another 30 minutes or so wrapping up.

I'm going to try new supplements I read about last night which are supposed to aid with hypoglycemic blood sugar issues. Supposedly I'm chromium deprived, and should also be taking biotin and L-glutamine. So I'm looking to visit a health store soon and look into supplements. I might just take one at a time, because 1) I probably can't afford all three (vitamins and supplements are expensive!) and 2) I'd like to see which one seems to work, so if I take all 3, I won't know if it's just one that's more effective or if it's the combination.

I can go home soon.

Comments

[gotmce99.livejournal.com]

That's me too -- either "on" or "power reserve." Of course, I'm also always wondering -- is it just that *I* think I'm being quiet, unfunny and boring, or does everyone else notice too?

Another Deep Thought from Maggie May

[raybear.livejournal.com]

yeah, especially in cases where someone hasn't necessarily witnessed lots of me being "on" -- so they may just think my power reserve mood is common nature. so i'm worried that i'm acting boring, but it's all relative. plus, it's really rare for me to deem someone boring just for being quiet -- i'm more likely to believe someone boring if they talk incessantly about uninteresting topics and don't seem to listen. so at least when i'm quiet, i'm a good listener, and i don't tend to rattle on too much.

[freakysparks.livejournal.com]

I like both kinds. "On" is fun and intoxicating; "power reserve" is mellow, laid-back -- both to experience and to witness.

[raybear.livejournal.com]

why thank you! and this takes less pressure off me if i am feeling mellow around you, because now you know i'm not being quiet for a "reason" or whatever.