You oughta know by now

[raybear]

So tomorrow at noon I'm having lunch with my boss and today I'm getting my review (which will be discussed tomorrow). It's probably better that I'm going home, packing the car, then leaving for the gig, and won't return home until about 10:30 or so -- I won't be able to fret all evening about what I'm reading. Though it's obviously much better to know what to expect going into the lunch meeting. And as I've said before, it can't be any worse than last years. Of course, it might be the same, which some could argue IS worse since I haven't improved in a year. Hmm. In a random lunch conversation a couple weeks ago, Differently Paced Coworker told me that I "shouldn't really worry about it" in this tone that indicates she knows something I don't. And maybe she does. Or maybe she was just trying to make me feel better because she knows she said nice things to my boss about me. At any rate, despite any feelings of embarassment that might come out of reading my reivew and having lunch tomorrow, they will hopefully quickly disperse once my raise goes through. I'm also feeling less invested since I know not only will I not be here forever, but also I know WHAT I will be going into next. For the most part. I'm also just having more feelings of ownership regarding my work, and I'm feeling more capable of defending it.

Damn I need a vacation. I need several days away from all work and all obligations. But of course this means work will pile up while gone. What I really want is a week in the office where no one will bother me with any other projects. Then I could get way ahead of the game, get my desk cleaned off, etc. etc. Though the chances of me actually getting this accomplished are extremely slim. I'm sure I'd spend the first 4 days goofing off, then on Friday attempt to get a bunch of stuff done at the last minute. Not-too-much-discipline, that's me.

And now my allergies are bothering me. And I'm nearly out of my bootleg allegra. I guess I should discuss this with my doctor and get a proper prescription. Speaking of doctors, I got a call this morning at work from a nurse at the hospital where I go who was inquiring about an appointment "I" made with another doctor there. An ob/gyn. She saw my name and was calling to confirm because she didn't think it was right. And it wasn't -- I haven't made an appointment with an ob/gyn. But I was scared for a minute that my doctor has done it on my behalf (why would he? I dunno). I think it was just a mixup -- they selected the wrong Johnson in the computer or whatever. But it was a weird mistake, and I worry about what I would have said if I HAD made the appointment. I think at this point complete bluntness is often the way to go. It tends to shut people up. As long as I'm in a place where it can't really hurt me. And since I think my insurance company is "onto me" and I'm currently paying all the expenses out of pocket and having them applied to the deductible, it's not like I can get screwed worse or harder.

I think this might be Day 6 of the Cranky Siege. No hostages have been released at this time

Comments

[brothernumber3.livejournal.com]

as you have previously agreed to be my
not so secret pretend boyfriend

i think you should go out with me and supergoat some night (though not tonight sinc eyou're already booked)

well, you should come out with us just because you're you
but i thought that the title should come with some sort of obligation or another
it only seems right.

we two crazies could show you a good time
and possibly alieviate some of the cranky siege
if only for a few hours

so. you know. come over!

[raybear.livejournal.com]

yes, i think as my not-so-secret pretend boyfriend, you're obligated to take me out on at least a couple dates. and because we're both fun-loving sluts, that means supergoat should certainly be along for the ride.

i seriously would love to come up to minn for visit. i should investigate the southwest flights, perhaps.

Three times the hottness, three times the fun!

[supergoat.livejournal.com]

As realized yesterday, the fabulous justaboi and I both told you (we done TOLD you) to come to MN on the same day and we didn't even plan it. Now that's just fate, I tell you, fate. Not some wacky circumstance. That's right. I also told mr. justaboi that I might have to kidnap him and take him to Chicago with me if you (that would be *you* raybear) don't come to MN sometime soon.

Though I am not fortunate enough to be either of your pretend boyfriend(s) or girlfriend(s), I would love to be along for the ride. :) - Though if you twos are gonna be busy (doing pretend boyfriendly things), you (Ray) should bring limenal along for the ride, too. I'm just sayin. ;)

Uh-huh.
Sho nuff.
You know it.
Hell yeah.
That's right.

awww sookie sookie now

Re: Three times the hottness, three times the fun!

[raybear.livejournal.com]

well, just in case you didn't know, you're always welcome to visit chicago and hang out! and you're always welcome to bring wyatt too. we have lots of sleeping quarters, including two futon couches in the living room, and a guest bedroom with two beds! it's insane how many people we could sleep in our apartment.