feelings. nothing more than....feelings.
May. 6th, 2002 07:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybearFor the most part, I'm feeling better. Though I'm still holding off on significant portions of food until tomorrow.
My day was fairly productive from a cleaning standpoint. I wasn't particularly sick enough to need bedrest, but I wasn't exactly up for anything super strenuous. So vacuuming and bleaching the bathroom seemed to be an okay blend of activities.
I'm supposed to spend tonight studying since I didn't do it this afternoon, but so far that's not really happening. It might happen when MelRo leaves for dinner, but somehow I doubt it. Maybe I shouldn't be feeling so negative, but for some reason my mood has turned sour in the past couple hours. Maybe it's the sun setting and the day being over. Maybe it's overreacting to general feelings of malaise and not feeling very happy about myself in general. I'm feeling rather unattractive, but not in a physical way -- =wWhich is sort of throwing me off. It's definitely more mental -- like I'm currently lacking in of the thinking skills required in making myself interesting or attractive to someone.
Then again, maybe since I'm in need of a shower and I've spent the day in basketball shorts without interacting with people, I should wait and analyze myself when the chips are totally stacked against me. I'm also feeling the need for a haircut, which tends to make me strangely anxious. Perhaps I will rectify THAT situation tonight.
Perhaps I should also turn off Notting Hill, which I actually sort of enjoy as a movie, but it definitely makes me anxious, the same way most sitcoms do as well. And of course, seeing movies like this will cause me to say "right, right" for several days after the fact
My day was fairly productive from a cleaning standpoint. I wasn't particularly sick enough to need bedrest, but I wasn't exactly up for anything super strenuous. So vacuuming and bleaching the bathroom seemed to be an okay blend of activities.
I'm supposed to spend tonight studying since I didn't do it this afternoon, but so far that's not really happening. It might happen when MelRo leaves for dinner, but somehow I doubt it. Maybe I shouldn't be feeling so negative, but for some reason my mood has turned sour in the past couple hours. Maybe it's the sun setting and the day being over. Maybe it's overreacting to general feelings of malaise and not feeling very happy about myself in general. I'm feeling rather unattractive, but not in a physical way -- =wWhich is sort of throwing me off. It's definitely more mental -- like I'm currently lacking in of the thinking skills required in making myself interesting or attractive to someone.
Then again, maybe since I'm in need of a shower and I've spent the day in basketball shorts without interacting with people, I should wait and analyze myself when the chips are totally stacked against me. I'm also feeling the need for a haircut, which tends to make me strangely anxious. Perhaps I will rectify THAT situation tonight.
Perhaps I should also turn off Notting Hill, which I actually sort of enjoy as a movie, but it definitely makes me anxious, the same way most sitcoms do as well. And of course, seeing movies like this will cause me to say "right, right" for several days after the fact
