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Apr. 20th, 2001 04:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybearMy eyes hurt. I can't wait to go home and take my contacts out.
Tonight I'm going to dinner with friends from out of town. I'm not necessarily looking forward to it, for some reason -- we're going to tapas which is expensice, and I'm feeling very stingy. So that's part of the reason. I think I'd also rather just have some alone/chill time with Melanie. I'm sure that seems weird since we returned 4 days ago from a 5 day trip where we spent every moment together. But the time spent is different. Plus, I've been feeling sort of needy lately. And I'm realy bad about asking for attention when I'm feeling needy. So I end up penning up the energy, then just sort of exploding with upset and hurt feelings. Which is ridiculous, since I"m not dating a psychic who knows everything I'm thinking. I need to work on giving myself permission to ask for things...and the understanding that it's not going to be automatically given to me, but that's ok.
It's Friday afternoon, almost 5 pm. I'm very ready to be done with work.
I haven't heard back from Dave yet. I also wrote e-mails to a couple of other friends who live out-of-town, so perphaps by Monday my inbox will be filled with messages.
Is it weird that I still haven't replied to my brother regarding the whole disowning thing? It's coming up on 2 months. I guess I should still write a note or something. I just so don't want to invest any time or energy towards his punk self. I'd rather make a mixtape.
When will this day end?
Tonight I'm going to dinner with friends from out of town. I'm not necessarily looking forward to it, for some reason -- we're going to tapas which is expensice, and I'm feeling very stingy. So that's part of the reason. I think I'd also rather just have some alone/chill time with Melanie. I'm sure that seems weird since we returned 4 days ago from a 5 day trip where we spent every moment together. But the time spent is different. Plus, I've been feeling sort of needy lately. And I'm realy bad about asking for attention when I'm feeling needy. So I end up penning up the energy, then just sort of exploding with upset and hurt feelings. Which is ridiculous, since I"m not dating a psychic who knows everything I'm thinking. I need to work on giving myself permission to ask for things...and the understanding that it's not going to be automatically given to me, but that's ok.
It's Friday afternoon, almost 5 pm. I'm very ready to be done with work.
I haven't heard back from Dave yet. I also wrote e-mails to a couple of other friends who live out-of-town, so perphaps by Monday my inbox will be filled with messages.
Is it weird that I still haven't replied to my brother regarding the whole disowning thing? It's coming up on 2 months. I guess I should still write a note or something. I just so don't want to invest any time or energy towards his punk self. I'd rather make a mixtape.
When will this day end?
