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May. 7th, 2001 09:47 amI had a good weekend, spent time visiting with friends (B&S on Saturday afternoon, dinner with M&T on Sunday), but I want more time at home! I'm itching to be at my house right now. I have such a homebody complex, where I have a minimum recommended weekly allowance in my space, and I don't think it's been met. But tonight I'm going there straight after work and not leaving.
I feel like I've been neglecting a lot of friends lately, and I have a lot of guilt associated with that. I know part of the problem is that I'm spending a LOT of time with Melanie, but it's not the real issue. Because if I'm at her apartment but feeling conscientious, I'll make the phone calls. Even if I was home, I still might not pick up the phone, but I might be more likely to do so.
Part of me doesn't even feel like I'm totally there when I'm with Melanie.....which scares me, because I don't want to be acting solely on habit or expectation or whatever. I don't think it's that deep -- I think I'm just in a "by myself at home" phase that I need to act out this week. Perhaps it the Moon that I got as an outcome card last week.....
I feel like I've been neglecting a lot of friends lately, and I have a lot of guilt associated with that. I know part of the problem is that I'm spending a LOT of time with Melanie, but it's not the real issue. Because if I'm at her apartment but feeling conscientious, I'll make the phone calls. Even if I was home, I still might not pick up the phone, but I might be more likely to do so.
Part of me doesn't even feel like I'm totally there when I'm with Melanie.....which scares me, because I don't want to be acting solely on habit or expectation or whatever. I don't think it's that deep -- I think I'm just in a "by myself at home" phase that I need to act out this week. Perhaps it the Moon that I got as an outcome card last week.....