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So at 3 am last night I climbed out of the loft bed to get Melanie her allegra and a glass of water. I'm a little tired this morning.

And although I wouldn't want this happening all the time, just for the sake of my nocturnal health, is it weird to say that I didn't mind doing this? I like the sense of responsibility and obligation that comes with being in a relationship. Which scares me, because I fear I'm at risk to be taken advantage of. But for the most part, I'm pretty good at not losing myself completely in a relationship. I just like having someone able to depend on me, and the sort of gentle caregiving that goes on between 2 people.

And this is exactly the kind of stuff that I thought I didn't want, or wouldn't be ready for so soon after my last relationship. But it's not true at all. My therapist said something interesting this week. That I was probably ready to have this partnership for awhile, and I tried to have it with K___, but it wasn't a good fit. Which sort of makes sense to me. And is probably why I recovered fairly quickly from the last relationship and was able to be in another one four months later.

I think this is going to be a great year. I'm looking forward to the end of the summer.

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I just spent way more money at lunch than I should have, but I'm extremely please because I found the Foreign Legion CD. Rock on Crow's Nest! I think I forget that it's actually a really cool store with a huge selection and some obscure tracks. The fact that it sort of looks like a Blockbuster and many of the employees are ignorant throws me off. They're always super friendly, but I ask them a question, like do you have such-and-such CD, and they walk over to the section where such-and-such is supposed to be, look for it, then turn to me and say no, we don't. Hello, I think I might have checked there, which is why I'm asking you. But anyway.....I now have Foreign Legion's album from last year! Check out their website.
Their production kicks a$$ and inspires me to hit the 1's and 2's.....

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As the day and week comes to a quiet, drawn-out close, I begin to shed my armor. My muscles start to shake after the weight has been discarded, and I'm allowed to enter a world of whispers and naps and bodies and movies and friends and shared meals. I have a silent name that even I don't know, I only know how to answer it's call.

A welcome respite before doing battle again on Monday morning.