this one's for my man, Ridley.

[it's not the same to see just the lyrics -- it's Faith's voice that makes this song. but oh well....]

"Emotional (Remix)" (Carl Thomas featuring Faith Evans)

I always dreamed that everything would be okay
With me and you, but I was wrong
When I looked into your eyes
I didn't see all the things I used to see
What's going on?

You gave me reason to believe that
We were always meant to be
But now I see, you were wrong
You can't keep running back to me
With all those "Baby, baby please"-s
No more, no more

Never imagined
You would be a painted picture
I'm emotional
You saw me leaving
No deceiving, it's official
I'm emotional

I can't forget that night I saw you in the corner
Wrapped up tight, you were wrong ooh
Slow dancing on the floor
While I was watching from the door
So hurt, there you were

You had your chance
But you through it all away
Thought you had my love always
Oh baby, I don't understand
Why you think that we could in total unhappiness

size queen

well, I'm not going to try and compete with Alex's post about last night. So just read his for a quasi-accurate account of the evening. Ha ha. Seriously, I had a cool time hang out with Alex and Riley, and it's awesome to have cool transguys that I like not JUST because they're trans or whatever.
I had a great time at Stargaze too, seeing a lot of my friends. I'm so gddamn lucky to have such amazing folks in my life. And I'm very very sad that Mi__&Be___ are moving to Seattle, but I know I'll see them again and stay good friends. They're like family. Well, there's no 'like' about it. They are family.
Oh, and Alex better develop those pics ASAP, damnit! Before I chicken out and destroy the film. I kept having thoughts of the Simpsons episode where Homer gets the boudouir photos done for Marge. Except I wasn't wearing firemen's trousers.
So yeah, coming soon to an LJ near you -- RayPorn.

Alright I can't believe that in approx. 7 hours MelRo will be home. Damn. I'm glad I'm so tired because it keeps me from being too nervous or anxious. But I am quite excited. I still have a few things around the house I to do....I'm mostly looking forward to just talking to her and remembering how much I like her. And I'm also looking forward to cuddling. Yay for that.

argh.

So I set up my yahoo account to also check the mail from my in-box account, and now it seems to be overloaded and having difficulties. I have e-mails to write! damn them. damn the man.

and on some psychic isht, I called Melanie about 30 minutes ago to wish her a good drive. Somehow I knew she hadn't left yet. Sure enough, I called right in the middle of her getting into the car and saying goodbye to folks. She'll call me later. I'm sure while I'm out for lunch. But it's all good. She'll still probably be home around 7ish, which gives me time to do last minute cleanup! nothing like adrenaline to make one move boxes and hang clothes much faster.

and on some other psychic isht, I was walking to Be__'s building to give her a card from someone else, and I was visited by my future self from an alternate universe where I royally fcked up my relationship with MelRo. this is sounding more dramatic than it really was. but anyway, I had a litle breakthrough regarding attitude, perspective, etc. Then I get an e-mail from Damon and he said almost the EXACT same things I had JUSt been thinking about. this is why I hang with him.

I'm sensing a health problem -- Are you currently under the care of an optometrist?

cookies for lunch

so I got a little busy on my lunch break, trying to find a change of address form, then I was commissioned to organize cake and cards for departing legal interns -- they forgot that today was one of their last day. so that occupied my lunch hour, which then became a work hour, and I never ate my chicken sandwich (though I did have a bagel at 11 am). so at 3:30 i was hungry, but ate cookie cake instead. bad idea. feeling a little woosy and over-sugared.

it's almost 5. which means i'm almost home. which means i'm almost about to see my beloved. and it's almost the weekend. which means lots of time in bed. and i don't necessarily mean that in a sexual way, to be perfectly honest. i'm just tired!

hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. here's hoping i will too!!