Love is so confusing there's no peace of mind If I fear I'm losing you it's just no good

So. I basically have no urge whatsoever to rehash my weekend. "Was it bad?" Not at all. On Friday, MelRo returned earlier than expected -- I had only been home from work for about 30 minutes. To be honest, stuff that happened on Friday evening, Saturday and Sunday afternoon sort of all blur together. We basically just spend most of the weekend either unpacking parts of the apartment or sleeping or talking. She was exhasuted and slightly sick. I got up early on Sunday and went to the old place and tossed a lot of the big furniture and moved the last carload. I still need to clean the place, which I will try to do tonight, even though I really don't want to.

On Saturday night we went to L__ and R___'s poetry performance and it was awesome. There was a great moment where L___ read this poem she wrote for me about a year ago when I came out to her as trans. I knew she would be reading it, and I haven't read it in a long while -- so it totally felt different this time. I actually got a little misty-eyed, which is very hard to do to a trannyboy on T. I love her.
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I'm a lucky sonofabitch.

(And not just because my g.e. is back in town.) But also because I have an awesome guy in my life who I'm thankful is becoming a great friend of mine. He wrote this about my situation.


10,000 miles of doubt
---------------------
Knots get tied
in some fancy
boy scout twist.
You each pull at different ends
to see which one
comes undone first.
Its easy to see
you just pulled it
tighter.

You let her go-
10,000 miles
or more.
Without a doubt.
Without a doubt.

Now this time alone
has left you thinking-
and you aren't sure
which way is up anymore.

But you whisper I love you's
in hushed tones-
keeping the vision alive.
Don't want to let go.

Thoughts of ending,forever
and new starts spin together
in a tornado haze.
Landing upside down
you pull your way out.

Lingering touchs-
smiles-
embrace-
keep you standing
still in place.
But her face is different
and you can't understand.

You let her go-
10,000 miles
or more.
Without a doubt.
Without a doubt.