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More explosions, fire, crashes, and death. strange to think that while it was occuring, I was eating a strawberry poptart.

Not doing so well this morning, but not exactly sure why or why not. I had a good weekend and yesterday was just mellow and lounging and cool.

But it's almost as if I had un-remembered nightmares all last night and woke up feeling like I'm suffocating and imprisoned within myself. It was hard to sit next to a stranger on the train, but I was too tired to stand. I also feel very sleepy and exhausted, despite getting 8 hours of sleep.

Diagnosis: I think my psyche is bothering me and causing the disturbances. Something is brewing.
Symptoms: slighlty irritable. insecurity. some paranoia. overly-sensitive. very quiet and disinterest in being social and outgoing.
Prognosis: It will probably get worse before it gets better.

I'm going to the library for my lunch break.

jonatha brooke on my mind. even if she went all freaky on me. and not in a good way.

CRUMBS

I can tell, by the way you're pushing crumbs around the table
You're not listening to me
And you say, that you have come as far as you are able
But you're not far from the tree

And you say, you're OK, but you live your life like it's over
and you say, you're OK, but you live your life like it's over

In your dreams, all your passion is like liquid fire
You trail your fingers find the spark
And you see your face reflected in the silver spirals,
but then it burns down in the dark.

And you say, you're OK, but you live your life like it's over
and you say, you're OK, but you live your life like it's over

And all the things you ever tried to tell me,
somehow don't apply to you
You're the one evading hope, side-stepping every inkling
that the good guy, the early bird, the one who tries, the one who tries again
WINS

And you say you're ok, but you live your life like it's over
And you say, you're ok but you live your life like it's over....
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I finally remembered to look it up.....

Oscar's worm was named Slimey.

and here's my very appropriate horoscope for today:

This could turn out to be the kind of day when you feel like enjoying a certain amount of time alone. This could offer you the chance for a little self-examination and you might encounter some interesting discoveries before the day is through. Try to remain positive when it comes to dealing with any sort of domestic matters today.
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This morning I read some weekly horoscope that said I would start a secret love affair in the middle of the week. With who? Myself? Excuse me while I sneak off to make out with myself in the alley behind my apartment. Because that's the only person with whom I'm interested in having a "secret" affair. I have no problem with my current public affairs.

It's oh so quiet.....shhh.....shhh....

Seems especially quiet today.

My head is aching and I'm happy to be going home in less than an hour.

I need to do laundry very badly tonight. The sheets are shameful, and today I wore white socks with black shoes and a dress shirt. That's so wrong. Luckily my gray work pants are long, so my dreadful secret is not easily revealed to the outside world, even when sitting down.

In other news, I found 3 snazzy videos at the library. And I also finally got in touch with Former Bookstore Friend. Ok, so I'm not as good as naming folks as limenal. But anyway, former describes the store and not the friend. (And also to bear.) Though our friendship is sporadic, it's never actually "ended". Anyway, perhaps we'll see "Waking Life" tomorrow evening. I've been craving movies a lot lately. I used to watch them ALL the time -- at least 3-4 a week, though not necessarily in the theater.

My head hurts too much to write anymore.