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A place called prison and a place called jail
And da-da's probably on his way to all of them except one.
I didn't have much to say on my own journal this morning, but I did over here, I guess.
Maybe because I've been thinking about re-reading some books, like The Ethical Slut, and possibly Come Hither, as well as seeing what new stuff is out there on sex and desire and relationships and whatnot. I used to be really up on all the sex writers and all the new stuff, but I haven't thought about it in awhile. And I'm feeling the need to reasses what's up with myself. I currently sort of feel like I'm floating around -- I'm not unhappy or discontent. In fact, I'm very pleased and satisfied for the most part. I just feel like I'm not terribly grounded, and I don't want to get myself into trouble by doing or not doing something. This might not be making sense. I'm not talking about just sex as an action here -- I'm more talking about who I am and what I want in regards to me as a sexual being. I haven't really checked in with myself in awhile. Probably because in the past few months I was sort of overwhelmed with so much new stimuli, I just wanted to chill and find a stable groove. So now that I'm feeling more stable, I feel more confident and therefore open to exploration or just thinking about what I might possibly want to explore. Even within or by myself.
Last night I engaged in a bit of retail therapy and purchased 2 new video games. And I finally hooked up the Dreamcast. I've been resisting, since I don't want to spend all of my time on deathmatch and not work on my music. But now that the weather is getting colder, it seems appropriate. Winter and early spring is all about video games for me. Conveniently enough, I finally bought Shenmue, which takes place real time and "starts on a winter day" but you're estimated finishing "when the first cherry blossoms bloom in the spring" or something like that. Ah, technology. I love how far games have come -- the graphics are so beautiful I nearly cried. Even though the game itself supposedly didn't quite live up to the hype (how could it?), it's still supposed to be pretty dope. Now I just need a new memory card so I can actually play the game....
And da-da's probably on his way to all of them except one.
I didn't have much to say on my own journal this morning, but I did over here, I guess.
Maybe because I've been thinking about re-reading some books, like The Ethical Slut, and possibly Come Hither, as well as seeing what new stuff is out there on sex and desire and relationships and whatnot. I used to be really up on all the sex writers and all the new stuff, but I haven't thought about it in awhile. And I'm feeling the need to reasses what's up with myself. I currently sort of feel like I'm floating around -- I'm not unhappy or discontent. In fact, I'm very pleased and satisfied for the most part. I just feel like I'm not terribly grounded, and I don't want to get myself into trouble by doing or not doing something. This might not be making sense. I'm not talking about just sex as an action here -- I'm more talking about who I am and what I want in regards to me as a sexual being. I haven't really checked in with myself in awhile. Probably because in the past few months I was sort of overwhelmed with so much new stimuli, I just wanted to chill and find a stable groove. So now that I'm feeling more stable, I feel more confident and therefore open to exploration or just thinking about what I might possibly want to explore. Even within or by myself.
Last night I engaged in a bit of retail therapy and purchased 2 new video games. And I finally hooked up the Dreamcast. I've been resisting, since I don't want to spend all of my time on deathmatch and not work on my music. But now that the weather is getting colder, it seems appropriate. Winter and early spring is all about video games for me. Conveniently enough, I finally bought Shenmue, which takes place real time and "starts on a winter day" but you're estimated finishing "when the first cherry blossoms bloom in the spring" or something like that. Ah, technology. I love how far games have come -- the graphics are so beautiful I nearly cried. Even though the game itself supposedly didn't quite live up to the hype (how could it?), it's still supposed to be pretty dope. Now I just need a new memory card so I can actually play the game....
