Whooo, take it ea-say. Cause it's the mthafckin knoc.

Cancer Horoscope: Your dreams of winning the lottery are just that -- dreams. Today is a 4 out of 10 regarding self-esteem, so be careful of energy-suckers and don't use this time to thoroughly examine every past mistake. Stop eating M&M's for breakfast and remember to take your medication. Don't be afraid to exercise occasionally either. For lunch, insist on fruit juice. Financial problems aren't as bad as they seem.

(Written by Aaron Johns.)

I'm not having a good day, body-wise. Not so much in a body dysmorphic "i'm so fat and ugly, how do I not blind people?" sort of way, but in a more health related fashion. I can tell of consumed much junk in the past week or so, and yet I'm not feeling completely compelled to get back on track, i.e. I don't stop myself from eating cookies. Communication between my brain and body feels out of sync. I'm trying to drink lots of water today so perhaps I can flush some of it out, but so far I've just gone to the bathroom three times.

Well so far this is pretty damn boring. Let's see if I can scrounge up a more interesting topic to write about....

Last night creating mood music for its own sake. No.
Exciting or interesting dreams form last night? Not that I remember.
I forgot to watch Real World or Osbournes, though I did enjoy the Buffy rerun.
I did a tarot reading which didn't provide much insight because I wasn't really in the mood to do a shared reading over the phone -- I always point my energy outward and interpret the other person's reading better than my own.
Parents? No word from them. I'm pretty much avoiding thinking about them, since I'm tapped out of useful insight on the subject.
Work? Busy, nothing exciting or even anecdotal.

Well, that pretty much brings me up to speed. Currently I'm feeling less emotional and more analytical in my thinking. Which makes for boring entries. I don't really want to wax philosophically about the logic problems or reversi games I'm playing. I don't want to talk about the hour I spent last night playing with pitch on a 1.5 second horn sample and a 3 second organ sample. It's entertaining to me, but boring to read about later. Actually, I probably could write something quasi-eloquent on the subjects, but just not now.

Trying to be motivated for therapying tonight. If inspiration strikes later, I shall return.

who are you and what have you done with raybear??

Ok, I must be out of sync, because I'm filling out a SURVEY. Geez, what's wrong with me? Can't I find something else to do while waiting for the copier? Oh well. Suck it up.

( Click here to read my first survey in over a year. This isn't one of those results things -- it's the list of likes/dislikes one that's going around lately Or don't click -- I ain't mad at you. )