He believes in beauty.

Dear RAYMOND,
Mysterious influences are at work, RAYMOND, and it may pay you to take special note of your dreams as they could contain some very important messages. Whatever feelings come to you concerning any new situations you are moving into, trust them and trust your own judgment. The females in your life may also be able to provide insights and perspectives relating to a problem over which you have spent much time in deep thought.

I can't believe my horoscope used the phrase "the females in your life". I absolutely fcking love it.

I'm supposed to write more here. I want to write more. But I arrived at work late, and I didn't get everything done yesterday, and I have this thing about getting a lot done on Friday mornings and early afternoon so I can be braindead on Friday afternoon but also I can not start off Monday morning being so far behind in the game. So Friday mornings are when my guilt about work suddenly gets joined with motivation, and things happen.

But I'd rather be writing here, especially since so many words and feelings are pouring out of my head and heart right now. Maybe it's good to hold on to them a bit more, keep them only for myself. I'm rarely selfish this way.

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing?

In case you actually cared, here are the answers to yesterday's poll. I learned an important lesson. I'm a big esoteric nerd who should stop making polls. But I'll continue to put song lyrics in my subject lines that make absolute sense to me even if they aren't as transparent to others.

( name that tune )

Though my heart was tossed with longing.

For those in the Chicago area, sorry if last night's thunderstorm caused you any problems -- that was partially my fault, though I assure you it was an unintentional summoning. I didn't even know it's what I was doing, but as soon as it appeared it made sense.

Last night I had this moment, a holy moment if you will, to borrow a phrase from Waking Life which nearly got ruined because I stepped outside of myself and thought "wow, I'm having a moment!" This was quickly followed by a brief moment of sadness because I knew the moment would end, unfortunately quite common -- not only the feeling of sadness but the ruination of the moment by acknowledging it. But I stopped myself and said, you're having this. It's real. You have this and people have gone an entire lifetime without this, which means I'm a lucky bastard. Even more phenomenal is that I realized how completely natural and innate it was for me to create and come to this moment with virtually no effort, so that if I were to be separated by thousands of miles for thousands of hours, I could still find it again if I just trust myself to do it on it's own.

A strange and beautiful moment of temporal enlightenment. But that's okay. More enlightenment TK, I felt like the universe was telling me.

Is there a word for experiencing something for the first time but knowing exactly what it is and how to respond or just absorb?

Whenever I see your smiling face...

I have a new userpic. And guess who it is? It's actually ME. Check out that grinning mug!

Big ups to kaileo who cropped the photo for me and made it livejournal-friendly. Now the world can see what I look like while sitting at my desk at work, writing and responding to posts.

[wearemany, you may notice I'm wearing my fabulous t-shirt.]