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I've almost reached my minimum goal. Three days. I told myself if I could get through three days, it would be a success. So far, I feel pretty good. Except, I swear, a foul odor is coming from my body at times. I don't know if it's processing of toxins or my body digest protein or a product of my imagination. I'm not itching to make out with anyone soon because of my paranoia about it, which is unfortunate.
My lungs/diaphrahm still feel sore, when I take a deep breath. I have a mild mild mild mild headache, like I pretty much don't notice it until I relax my facial muscles and look away from the computer monitor. I've been peppy all day, but right this second I feel a little sleepy, but I'm also chilly and bored and my cubicle-mate left for the day, so that might be more environment. I'm starting to get a little obsessed mentally with processed food, in that I'm grossed out by it (but still wanting it). I wonder how all of this would differ if I wasn't working downtown, surrounded by various food all the time. If I was sitting at home.
I've been doing more research about fasting in general, and yeah, I probably should have done this BEFORE, but that's not how I roll. (A somewhat recent extreme example of this would be reading about exactly how the chest reconstruction surgical procedure goes.....after I'd already had chest surgery. Hey, I knew what results I wanted, I didn't care as much about how it got done. Anyway....) I think I will start incorporating more frequent detox/fasts in my life, but not necessarily weeklong cleanses. More like one or two days. Then again, this might be the hunger euphoria talking.
Today I've had four glasses of lemonade cocktail and maybe 1/2 cup of almonds total (part in the morning, part in the afternoon) and lots of water. I might switch to juice fasting for a few days. I might do raw foods only. I don't know. I'll see how I feel in the morning. Each day seems to be getting easier, so I guess I could keep going. But I feel really ambivalent. I don't know if it's because DYA ate today and is now rethinking it, or because I'm just feeling unsure about why I decided to do this in the first place. I mean, the health stuff, but I feel like I wanted something else, a spiritual component, but I didn't really go into it very clear what that would be. Which means I'm getting results that exactly match.
Then again, it's only 3:30ish, and the evenings have been the hardest part of the fasts. Even the night before Day One, I was jonesing for cookies or cake, but I held off. Maybe that's the real reason I'm contemplating ending it -- because I'm going to be home a lot this weekend. I feel like I should take a poll: should Raymond eat? Not because I would necessarily do what got the most votes, but that seeing what got the most votes might help clarify my real preference. (I'm kidding, please don't feel compelled to comment with your vote.)
My lungs/diaphrahm still feel sore, when I take a deep breath. I have a mild mild mild mild headache, like I pretty much don't notice it until I relax my facial muscles and look away from the computer monitor. I've been peppy all day, but right this second I feel a little sleepy, but I'm also chilly and bored and my cubicle-mate left for the day, so that might be more environment. I'm starting to get a little obsessed mentally with processed food, in that I'm grossed out by it (but still wanting it). I wonder how all of this would differ if I wasn't working downtown, surrounded by various food all the time. If I was sitting at home.
I've been doing more research about fasting in general, and yeah, I probably should have done this BEFORE, but that's not how I roll. (A somewhat recent extreme example of this would be reading about exactly how the chest reconstruction surgical procedure goes.....after I'd already had chest surgery. Hey, I knew what results I wanted, I didn't care as much about how it got done. Anyway....) I think I will start incorporating more frequent detox/fasts in my life, but not necessarily weeklong cleanses. More like one or two days. Then again, this might be the hunger euphoria talking.
Today I've had four glasses of lemonade cocktail and maybe 1/2 cup of almonds total (part in the morning, part in the afternoon) and lots of water. I might switch to juice fasting for a few days. I might do raw foods only. I don't know. I'll see how I feel in the morning. Each day seems to be getting easier, so I guess I could keep going. But I feel really ambivalent. I don't know if it's because DYA ate today and is now rethinking it, or because I'm just feeling unsure about why I decided to do this in the first place. I mean, the health stuff, but I feel like I wanted something else, a spiritual component, but I didn't really go into it very clear what that would be. Which means I'm getting results that exactly match.
Then again, it's only 3:30ish, and the evenings have been the hardest part of the fasts. Even the night before Day One, I was jonesing for cookies or cake, but I held off. Maybe that's the real reason I'm contemplating ending it -- because I'm going to be home a lot this weekend. I feel like I should take a poll: should Raymond eat? Not because I would necessarily do what got the most votes, but that seeing what got the most votes might help clarify my real preference. (I'm kidding, please don't feel compelled to comment with your vote.)
