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I had some intense dreams last night I'm still trying to shake off. Even though I barely remember the actual content.
Day 4 of fast/cleanse/detox a.k.a. The End. Sort of.
I feel good. I really do. I know I've made these intense lists here in my journal about adverse symptoms and things I'm craving, but that's actually only the minor experience. The major experience (post-day one) is I really feel good. I'm not having the Most Energy of My Life or anything dramatic like that, but still.
Yesterday around 5pm, I started to feel the sluggish blood sugar feelings, so I got an all fruit smoothie from Jamba Juice, which I'm not normally a fan of, but it's handy when you're on some sort of detox program to have a 'fast food' option. I was 3/4 of the way done with it, chatting with DYA, when I started laughing because I had unconsciously ordered a smoothie where the primary ingredient was lemons. With another handful of almonds, I made it through the evening great. But I missed eating. I miss it so much, the ritual and experience and pleasure. I am ready to have it back. But yet, I'm also not ready to jump back into at all. So today is a transition day. This morning I made a breakfast that was the juice of a grapefruit, an orange, two lemons, a lime plus a tablespoon of maple syrup. (I love this juicer I bought! I'm going crazy with all things citrus!) And some almonds. Like I said, transitioning. I'm going to have a banana soon. I'm going to the grocery store soon for some broth and a few other things. I'm still taking it day by day what I want to add. I'm holding off on dairy and meat and caffeine and refined sugar for now, even though those are what I miss most. But it's not what I'm craving. per se. It's very odd, I'm in this paradox space of mentally missing one thing, but physically desiring another. I'm going with the physical. I'm also feeling this whole detox thing. I've been converted, I will be doing this again. It was a good test run.
Last night when we got home after the dance performance, I cut up this watermelon we got in our produce box. It was about the size of a basketball, maybe slightly smaller. I cut it in half, then cut that half into big cubes, and then split the bowl with DYA while watching tv. After that, I felt full, in this really satisfying way I hadn't had in a few days. I wasn't too full, just pleasantly satisfied and sated. This morning I had the opposite experience-- my stomach was growling while I was juicing all the fruit and I loved it. It's rare that I just have pure stomach pangs -- I usually also have headache, sluggish, etc. etc. Sometimes the low blood sugar things happen even before the stomach growling. It felt really great to just have it growling and not also feel like absolute and total isht. I will further investigate and explore these possibilities. I was doing the fast/cleanse to help determine if I had dairy/wheat/anything else allergies because of intestinal stuff, but I never thought that it could be used to alleviate or better manage my hypoglycemia.
By Monday, I'll probably be eating fried chicken. But that's okay, I never intended to give up all my food loves. I'm just trying not to be ruled and ruined by them.
Day 4 of fast/cleanse/detox a.k.a. The End. Sort of.
I feel good. I really do. I know I've made these intense lists here in my journal about adverse symptoms and things I'm craving, but that's actually only the minor experience. The major experience (post-day one) is I really feel good. I'm not having the Most Energy of My Life or anything dramatic like that, but still.
Yesterday around 5pm, I started to feel the sluggish blood sugar feelings, so I got an all fruit smoothie from Jamba Juice, which I'm not normally a fan of, but it's handy when you're on some sort of detox program to have a 'fast food' option. I was 3/4 of the way done with it, chatting with DYA, when I started laughing because I had unconsciously ordered a smoothie where the primary ingredient was lemons. With another handful of almonds, I made it through the evening great. But I missed eating. I miss it so much, the ritual and experience and pleasure. I am ready to have it back. But yet, I'm also not ready to jump back into at all. So today is a transition day. This morning I made a breakfast that was the juice of a grapefruit, an orange, two lemons, a lime plus a tablespoon of maple syrup. (I love this juicer I bought! I'm going crazy with all things citrus!) And some almonds. Like I said, transitioning. I'm going to have a banana soon. I'm going to the grocery store soon for some broth and a few other things. I'm still taking it day by day what I want to add. I'm holding off on dairy and meat and caffeine and refined sugar for now, even though those are what I miss most. But it's not what I'm craving. per se. It's very odd, I'm in this paradox space of mentally missing one thing, but physically desiring another. I'm going with the physical. I'm also feeling this whole detox thing. I've been converted, I will be doing this again. It was a good test run.
Last night when we got home after the dance performance, I cut up this watermelon we got in our produce box. It was about the size of a basketball, maybe slightly smaller. I cut it in half, then cut that half into big cubes, and then split the bowl with DYA while watching tv. After that, I felt full, in this really satisfying way I hadn't had in a few days. I wasn't too full, just pleasantly satisfied and sated. This morning I had the opposite experience-- my stomach was growling while I was juicing all the fruit and I loved it. It's rare that I just have pure stomach pangs -- I usually also have headache, sluggish, etc. etc. Sometimes the low blood sugar things happen even before the stomach growling. It felt really great to just have it growling and not also feel like absolute and total isht. I will further investigate and explore these possibilities. I was doing the fast/cleanse to help determine if I had dairy/wheat/anything else allergies because of intestinal stuff, but I never thought that it could be used to alleviate or better manage my hypoglycemia.
By Monday, I'll probably be eating fried chicken. But that's okay, I never intended to give up all my food loves. I'm just trying not to be ruled and ruined by them.
