Hot up in herrrrrre.

[raybear]

I think my shot yesterday caused my blood sugar to drop to migraine level, but I got home early and ended up having some good chatting with Shana. Unfortunately I had to cut the conversation short since it was hard to listen and nod and react and think and talk without causing further throbbing in my left temple. But hopefully we'll get a chance to talk more, especially since I'm fascinated with how her current relationships are shaping up in her life and how it fits into expectations and unexpected pleasures and it's helpful for me to hear right now because of my own attempts to change my perception and open myself up.

I re-read section of The Ethical Slut in the waiting room yesterday. Funny how certain passages I've read before and remember didn't mean much at the time, but now they make perfect sense. I also realized that my first time reading the book was also the first time I read the books Come Hither and SM 101 and my perceptions of sex with others has been shaped within this idea of kink -- outside sex with others as a fetish, so to speak, versus an extension of an additional relationship outside of the primary partnership. That seemed like TOO much at the time -- polyamory or whatever one wants to call it was breaking too many boundaries and I wasn't able to really articulate and understand and incorporate it, even though to a small extent I was already doing it.

I didn't mean to go into that just now. But whatever.

Last night was fun for seeing the growingly trashy (finally) Real World and the mildly disappointing Kelly Osbourne (there was just too much hype), but I think after the shows I should have turned off the TV and made everyone play a rousing game of Trivia Pursuit. I fall back to the television so often in my social interactions because I get a complex about finding conversation topics for everyone to participate in, and it seems so much easier to just had a mystery science theater-style evening of TV watching with occasional personal conversation during commercial breaks. But then it seems like such a waste of time afterwards. Don't get me wrong -- I loved all the people in my living room last night and I had some excellent laughs and some great stories were told. Sometimes I just think the interactions would be better served in other mediums. Television and movies are my social crutch. But I guess since it's my household I have the license to unplug the machine and turn up some music and re-focus people's attention -- it's just sometimes that seems like way too much work.

I have therapy tonight. What a long strange two weeks it's been.

Comments

[vfc.livejournal.com]

Fuck! I missed Trivial Pursuit? Man, I suck. And I didn't even clean my house. We'll have to schedule some game=playing for next week, should you come visit.

[raybear.livejournal.com]

No, you didn't miss trivial pursuit -- I never got off my ass to motivate folks to play. But now that I know you're ready and willing, we shall play soon. I'm all about board games.

[milosh.livejournal.com]

oh dear, i'm real real bad at TP, but i'd survive if blessed with a partner. i am a big fan of other games, though, such as charades, pictionary, and balderdash (<-- a fave). in case you were wondering.

and ps i've done wonders to my resume this early afternoon. now it's time to write some cover letters. yeah, dog.

it is most DEFINITELY getting hot in herrrrrrrreeeeee

[nineinchlovely.livejournal.com]

I officially suck tail at Balderdash AND Taboo.

Especially Taboo.
I must say, it's been a while since TP for me..
I MUST meet you dagnabit.
Sometime soon, you figment.. (of Ray's imagination)