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May. 4th, 2001 10:36 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybearSo at 3 am last night I climbed out of the loft bed to get Melanie her allegra and a glass of water. I'm a little tired this morning.
And although I wouldn't want this happening all the time, just for the sake of my nocturnal health, is it weird to say that I didn't mind doing this? I like the sense of responsibility and obligation that comes with being in a relationship. Which scares me, because I fear I'm at risk to be taken advantage of. But for the most part, I'm pretty good at not losing myself completely in a relationship. I just like having someone able to depend on me, and the sort of gentle caregiving that goes on between 2 people.
And this is exactly the kind of stuff that I thought I didn't want, or wouldn't be ready for so soon after my last relationship. But it's not true at all. My therapist said something interesting this week. That I was probably ready to have this partnership for awhile, and I tried to have it with K___, but it wasn't a good fit. Which sort of makes sense to me. And is probably why I recovered fairly quickly from the last relationship and was able to be in another one four months later.
I think this is going to be a great year. I'm looking forward to the end of the summer.
And although I wouldn't want this happening all the time, just for the sake of my nocturnal health, is it weird to say that I didn't mind doing this? I like the sense of responsibility and obligation that comes with being in a relationship. Which scares me, because I fear I'm at risk to be taken advantage of. But for the most part, I'm pretty good at not losing myself completely in a relationship. I just like having someone able to depend on me, and the sort of gentle caregiving that goes on between 2 people.
And this is exactly the kind of stuff that I thought I didn't want, or wouldn't be ready for so soon after my last relationship. But it's not true at all. My therapist said something interesting this week. That I was probably ready to have this partnership for awhile, and I tried to have it with K___, but it wasn't a good fit. Which sort of makes sense to me. And is probably why I recovered fairly quickly from the last relationship and was able to be in another one four months later.
I think this is going to be a great year. I'm looking forward to the end of the summer.
