raybear | When will I learn?

So I forgot to call the tarot person back on Friday and did it today. She already booked all her folks for the Cultural Event party. So no tarot readings for me this year. I'm pretty bummed to be out the $150, but it's my own fault for being a slowpoke. I've experienced this lesson before, yet I haven't quite learned it yet.

The phone call with Damon was productive, though I'm still not clear. Two reversed cards. My last reading I got 8 our of 11 reversed cards. I have some major blocked energy it appears on a lot of fronts.

Maybe I need to channel myself elsewhere. But it's such this chickn and egg dilemma. Do I focus on developing skills and talent so I can sell myself easier, or do I focus on selling myself and landing gigs, so I can afford to develop my skills and talent.

Perhaps I just need to sell more books on Amazon. And/or get a part-time job. The latter I have seriously considered. Though I wish my part-time job was being a DJ at a club.

Argh. It's a never ending circle. Why can't I just get off my ass and make it happen? Maybe I should stop talking about my parents so gddamn much in therapy and talk about this.