I love my Girlfriend-Equivalent.
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raybear(The subject has nothing directly to do with the post.)
Feeling better than yesterday, though I'm more physically tried. Like now I'm sore from running -- what's that about?
Saw Wendy Wasserstein speak last night at the bookstore, and she was really good -- her talk managed to convince me to buy a book to get a sign, which is rare nowadays, as a jaded bookstore employee. I didn't buy her new book, though I'd be interested in reading. Instead I had her sign a copy of the book with her 3 plays.
I'm looking forward to having three days off this weekend. I lied about going out of town so I wouldn't have to work on Sunday, but now I'm starting to wish I wasn't lying and that I was out of town. It would be nice to escape briefly. But I'm also looking forward to hanging with Damon who I haven't seen in centuries. Or at least a couple weeks.
Today I'm feeling annoyed by a certain someone's compliments on my clothing. Which also means I'm feeling bad. Why is it so annoying for me to be over-complimented? It just feels so disingenuous, but then I feel bad because they're just trying to be nice to me. But I guess they just overdo it. I'm not saying that I freak out if some random friend says "nice shirt" or "you smell good -- what's that cologne". It's more like this one specific friend who says the same things often, sometimes with no basis. Like they'll compliment my shirt even though it's the 5th time I've worn it in 3 weeks. Or they say my hair looks good when I'm due for a haircut and I have hat-hair. Why am I making such a weird deal about this? Well, I don't know. I never expected it would be an issue for me. I mean, I've run into people in the past who are the types that over-try when it comes to making friends, and sometimes made comments like this, but I usually just forget about it. I guess now that happens to me on a regular basis, it's an unexpected "problem". When it happens, I usually just nicely say "thanks" and then talk about something else. If I sort of 'ignore' the compliment (mumble thanks and walk away), then it seems to encourage additional attention. If I act really grateful and happy that they're giving me a compliment, then it seems to encourage additional attention. Ack! Who knew this would ever be an "issue" in my life. But it does make me feel uncomfortable......It's been going on for over a year now, and it actually doesn't affect me as much as it used to, so I think I'll just sort of start to overlook it more and not get as anxious about the tiny things.
Um, I think that's all the topics I had to ramble about. Except I haven't mentioned that I really like my g.e. and I'm jealous of myself sometimes because I'm with her.
Feeling better than yesterday, though I'm more physically tried. Like now I'm sore from running -- what's that about?
Saw Wendy Wasserstein speak last night at the bookstore, and she was really good -- her talk managed to convince me to buy a book to get a sign, which is rare nowadays, as a jaded bookstore employee. I didn't buy her new book, though I'd be interested in reading. Instead I had her sign a copy of the book with her 3 plays.
I'm looking forward to having three days off this weekend. I lied about going out of town so I wouldn't have to work on Sunday, but now I'm starting to wish I wasn't lying and that I was out of town. It would be nice to escape briefly. But I'm also looking forward to hanging with Damon who I haven't seen in centuries. Or at least a couple weeks.
Today I'm feeling annoyed by a certain someone's compliments on my clothing. Which also means I'm feeling bad. Why is it so annoying for me to be over-complimented? It just feels so disingenuous, but then I feel bad because they're just trying to be nice to me. But I guess they just overdo it. I'm not saying that I freak out if some random friend says "nice shirt" or "you smell good -- what's that cologne". It's more like this one specific friend who says the same things often, sometimes with no basis. Like they'll compliment my shirt even though it's the 5th time I've worn it in 3 weeks. Or they say my hair looks good when I'm due for a haircut and I have hat-hair. Why am I making such a weird deal about this? Well, I don't know. I never expected it would be an issue for me. I mean, I've run into people in the past who are the types that over-try when it comes to making friends, and sometimes made comments like this, but I usually just forget about it. I guess now that happens to me on a regular basis, it's an unexpected "problem". When it happens, I usually just nicely say "thanks" and then talk about something else. If I sort of 'ignore' the compliment (mumble thanks and walk away), then it seems to encourage additional attention. If I act really grateful and happy that they're giving me a compliment, then it seems to encourage additional attention. Ack! Who knew this would ever be an "issue" in my life. But it does make me feel uncomfortable......It's been going on for over a year now, and it actually doesn't affect me as much as it used to, so I think I'll just sort of start to overlook it more and not get as anxious about the tiny things.
Um, I think that's all the topics I had to ramble about. Except I haven't mentioned that I really like my g.e. and I'm jealous of myself sometimes because I'm with her.
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self-jealousy over own g.e.
Joe
PS: I'm loving the use of G.E. as a label/non label!