Well, some things you can explain away, but the heartache's with me to this day.

[raybear]

Last night I played Nurse Betty to an ailing dommeyourass, which wasn't exactly my first-choice in how to end a long restful weekend (or hers either, I'm sure!), though I was in a better boat than her because at least I didn't have searing back pain. And since it wasn't that long ago that I threw my own back out, I was extremely sympathetic and empathetic, happy to be of some service even if it was just to roll her over in the middle of the night and bring her ice packs.

Watching her struggle with invalidity, I was thinking about when I myself get injured or sick and how I swear up and down that I will never again take my health and non-pain state for granted, but of course I always do. Even now I feel whiney because I'm perfectly healthy, just a little sleepy but that seems to be all I can focus on. Naps can come later. For now, be happy I'm mobile and pain-free.

Last night's zombie movie was therapeutic in some strange way, though my tales of the plotline ended up causing someone else to have nightmares.

And for some reason this reminds me of the topic of gifts. cruelnails, I forgot to mention that my Prince CD's arrived last week and I love them! I'm putting a package for you in the mail today. And vfc, belated thank-you for the bookstore gift card and I thought you would be happy to know I made two purchases with it: a yoga DVD and a new paper journal that's thick, heavy and faux leatherbound -- it has the look and feel of a bible. As you can imagine, this makes me happy.



Your Weekly Horoscope for July 07 to 13

Dear RAYMOND,
With so much emphasis on your sign and a Full Moon in Capricorn, there seems to be enough emotion around to sink a battleship, or at least to make one very big mountain out of one tiny molehill. Life seems to be a series of wonderful visions and ingrained fears that need to be overcome so that you can move on. The presence of Mars and Uranus in Pisces is helping you to see a whole range of new possibilities that are a real breath of fresh air. And Saturn in your sign is showing you just what you need to do to enable them to happen. It is also revealing where your greatest weaknesses lie. These, though, are meant to be overcome - so start right away by taking baby steps. Part of you wants to travel and may even be thinking of relocating abroad, but the other part of you is stuck in the past. You have to decide what you really want out of life. Your career continues to look positive, and there are a number of ways you can continue to earn good money. Your relationships are in your hands, and with Saturn in your sign, you seem to be making all the big decisions. If you feel lonesome at the start of the week, things will improve greatly when Venus aspects Mars - so you get to experience a little romance as well.


And specifically for today:

CANCER (Jun 21–Jul 22): You may be thinking about past situations in your life where your feelings were hurt. These memories may go all the way back to your early childhood. Now, as you bring these thoughts into the present time, you can see things that you didn’t see then. As difficult as it is, your own healing won’t come until you forgive all involved—including yourself.


I've been thinking about my family a lot lately in the past day, which is what my horoscope is referencing. Sort of follow-up digesting to things brought up in therapy two weeks ago.

Comments

[writeli.livejournal.com]

For now, be happy I'm mobile and pain-free.

I was in a back brace and hunched over for months after a car accident and said I'd be so grateful to be upright. Today I'm complaining because I'm tired. Ok, time 4 me to shut up on that one. Thanks for the reminder.

[cruelnails.livejournal.com]

Oh, cool. I was beginning to wonder if I had the right address - but I didn't want to say anything becuase I thought maybe you were all like, "Damn, these cd's suck - I hope it never comes up so I don't have to hurt his fragile feelings." ;-)

Alas, I'm glad you like them and I'm looking forward to your cd...

[raybear.livejournal.com]

I realized I dropped them in the box without including a playlist. Maybe I'll wait until you listen to them both, then I can e-mail it to you.

I often worry about your fragile feelings, Dave. ;)

Re:

[cruelnails.livejournal.com]

Good thing. If my feelings were any more fragile, Sting would be singing acoustic songs about them
;-)

I'll drop you a note when it comes and you can email the tracklisting to me. I like being able to guess what the songs/artists are for a bit, actually.

[limenal.livejournal.com]

1. Yoga DVD!

2. The word "invalid" had always interested me, or at least it has interested me since I wrote a paper about Sylvia Plath's "Tulips" or whatever the poem is called. The idea that physical limitations make you invalid as a person is shocking when you state it plainly, but it's no coincidence that the words are the same, I think. I don't know.

3. I watched "Once More With Feeling" once more this weekend!

[raybear.livejournal.com]

I too share a fascination with the word "invalid" and the psychological and philosophical meaning that gets conveyed with the word. Sort of like the colloquial use of the term "lame".

Which reminds me, I have a question for you: what's the word that means "the act of making up a word"?

I want to see Once More with Feeling again! I've only seen in once, even though I've listened to the soundtrack a thousand plus times.

invalid

[dommeyourass.livejournal.com]

yeah, i feel pretty invalid.

i'm going to write about this separately in my own journal, but all i have to say is that it sucks to have pain you didn't ask for.

Re: invalid

[raybear.livejournal.com]

baby, you are anything BUT invalid.

Last night's zombie movie

[vimandvigor.livejournal.com]

yikes! that was a good horror movie. i was still thinking of it while i was curled up alone at home afterwards. just to my liking... it was cathartic.