Terence, This Is Stupid Stuff

[raybear]

As an emotional junkie in recovery, I'm struggling a little this afternoon with not trying to take on too much of someone else's life right now and future-tripping. I'm doing a less than adequate job at it, but it could be worse I suppose. I think it helps that I have my own personal bits to future-trip on, that are only tangentially related.

I'm planning on writing my grad school admissions essay on the phenomenon of livejournal and how it's influenced me as a writer. This is either suicide or brilliance. I'm hoping for the latter.

My brain hurts. I can feel the muscles on my head relaxing in this strange way, pushing down towards my forehead and making my eyes droopy. I want to sleep and sleep and sleep and it's not just avoidance sleep that I sometimes get -- I think I'm still a bit deprived from my busy weekend and late nights and lack of napping. Of course, it's not always for lack of trying. I have this fear that I've lost my ability to nap because when I lie down, my body will only relax up to a point. I drift near sleep, but never quite teeter over the edge. Sometimes this is relaxing and rejuvenating in a different way. A "lie-down", if you will. Other times it's infuriating and frustrating.

Though I seem to have no problem falling asleep on the train on the way home. Maybe I'll just ride the brown line back and forth a couple times before going home. I'm like a baby who needs to ride in the minivan at bedtime.

Ooooh, Damon called!

Comments

Share the joy of livejournal grad school essay!

[(Anonymous)]

Please post your essay on the phenomenon of livejournaling on your livejournal! It will be of oh-so-much-greatest interest to us, or to me anyway.

Re: Share the joy of livejournal grad school essay!

[raybear.livejournal.com]

I will possibly post it (once it gets written!) if you reveal who you are! I'm guessing maybe you're just someone who forgot to log in?

[crafting-change.livejournal.com]

I'm planning on writing my grad school admissions essay on the phenomenon of livejournal and how it's influenced me as a writer. This is either suicide or brilliance. I'm hoping for the latter
I can't wait to read this...I love seeing how the entity that is lj transforms artists.

Re: Share the joy of livejournal grad school essay!

[pagefever.livejournal.com]

It's Pagefever in Portland, Oregon! I don't remember how I ever found your livejournal but I look at a LOT of them, I'm obsessed with the phenomenon. MANY grad school essays could be written about it, I think. And also I am entertained by your complex relationship with your dog Sophie; I myself have a complex relationship with my horse, Jasmine, I identify.

Re: Share the joy of livejournal grad school essay!

[raybear.livejournal.com]

thanks to yours and others' interest, I will indeed post the essay when it's complete!

And I hope you don't mind, I added you to my friends list because I enjoy your journal. I get excited by storytellers and essayists on my friends page.

Re: Share the joy of livejournal grad school essay!

[pagefever.livejournal.com]

I am most flattered to be added to your friends list! And I shall do the same, when I remember how to add people.

[writeli.livejournal.com]

Glad it's a done deal that the essay will be posted. I actually started using lj just to get back in the habit of putting thoughts of any kind down for the record. Would love to see your take on it.