Terence, This Is Stupid Stuff
Jul. 22nd, 2003 04:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybearAs an emotional junkie in recovery, I'm struggling a little this afternoon with not trying to take on too much of someone else's life right now and future-tripping. I'm doing a less than adequate job at it, but it could be worse I suppose. I think it helps that I have my own personal bits to future-trip on, that are only tangentially related.
I'm planning on writing my grad school admissions essay on the phenomenon of livejournal and how it's influenced me as a writer. This is either suicide or brilliance. I'm hoping for the latter.
My brain hurts. I can feel the muscles on my head relaxing in this strange way, pushing down towards my forehead and making my eyes droopy. I want to sleep and sleep and sleep and it's not just avoidance sleep that I sometimes get -- I think I'm still a bit deprived from my busy weekend and late nights and lack of napping. Of course, it's not always for lack of trying. I have this fear that I've lost my ability to nap because when I lie down, my body will only relax up to a point. I drift near sleep, but never quite teeter over the edge. Sometimes this is relaxing and rejuvenating in a different way. A "lie-down", if you will. Other times it's infuriating and frustrating.
Though I seem to have no problem falling asleep on the train on the way home. Maybe I'll just ride the brown line back and forth a couple times before going home. I'm like a baby who needs to ride in the minivan at bedtime.
Ooooh, Damon called!
I'm planning on writing my grad school admissions essay on the phenomenon of livejournal and how it's influenced me as a writer. This is either suicide or brilliance. I'm hoping for the latter.
My brain hurts. I can feel the muscles on my head relaxing in this strange way, pushing down towards my forehead and making my eyes droopy. I want to sleep and sleep and sleep and it's not just avoidance sleep that I sometimes get -- I think I'm still a bit deprived from my busy weekend and late nights and lack of napping. Of course, it's not always for lack of trying. I have this fear that I've lost my ability to nap because when I lie down, my body will only relax up to a point. I drift near sleep, but never quite teeter over the edge. Sometimes this is relaxing and rejuvenating in a different way. A "lie-down", if you will. Other times it's infuriating and frustrating.
Though I seem to have no problem falling asleep on the train on the way home. Maybe I'll just ride the brown line back and forth a couple times before going home. I'm like a baby who needs to ride in the minivan at bedtime.
Ooooh, Damon called!
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Re: Share the joy of livejournal grad school essay!
Date: 2003-07-23 08:54 am (UTC)And I hope you don't mind, I added you to my friends list because I enjoy your journal. I get excited by storytellers and essayists on my friends page.
Re: Share the joy of livejournal grad school essay!
Date: 2003-07-23 12:54 pm (UTC)