Pitiful.

[raybear]

For some reason yesterday and today, more than any other time in the past week, I've been feeling more heartsick and lonely. Not in a real tragic or depressing way. But more in the way that produces bad poetry and cheesy Hallmark cards. I'm just straight up missing her. And I feel lame for it. But whatever. I should stop comparing my situation with others as a means of making myself feel better, because it doesn't work and its pointless. I can't read the newspaper and search for horrible stories and then say to myself "well it could be worse -- I could be in some war-torn country". I can't even compare my feelings and situations to other friends and acquaintances. It's not fair to me nor is it respectful to them. Microcosm, macrocosm. Apples and oranges. Whatever.

I made a Mark Eitzel best of mixtape last night. Or more of a retrospective, really. Perhaps that's why I'm fcked up. He's such a dark and meloncholy singer, but that's part of why I love him.

I admire Joe's resistance to the survey. And I propose that we band together a create a new super LJ survey. Anyone can contribute between 5-10 questions, then we'll all post it as one long survey. The goal is to spread it all over LJ. The survey to end all surveys.....

I volunteer myself as compiler if anyone's interested -- send me your questions!

[But for now, back to "regular" work....]

Comments

Tori Amos' "Boys for Pele" fucked me up!

[brucebanner.livejournal.com]

GREAT idea. See my post comments from Marg to get the questions She, C and I proposed. I want to ask folks stupid paired with really cheesy serious shit to see how much "deep" stuff we can actually get the poor lj saps to give us. But, Marg wants to keep it all silly. I say: mix it all in there together and nobody will know if it's all for kicks or all for fun. I'm creepy like that w/ a capital K! hee hee.

PS: I miss Tara lots and lots. Let's start a really cheesy/creepy/badpoetry lj community to post about our loved ones that are far away. Or...lets dance around our houses naked and sing really dumb songs REEEEALY loud and stomp our feet until they get back. *I* think the latter would be far less embarassing. :)

it takes YEARS to perfect this kind of creepiness,
joe

suggested questions

[jdcatron.livejournal.com]

Have you ever used computer or electronics equiptment?

Have you ever used computer or electronics equiptment in a sexual manner? (and if so, can we have details)

if you were a type of rice, what sort of rice would you be?

Can JDCatron come and raid your refridgerator?

What's your purity test score?

How much wood would a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?

JD