Till now I've always got by on my own.
Feb. 16th, 2004 12:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybearI've been awake since approximately 9:30 am and I tried to take a mid-morning nap but was woken up by thumping and loud music of the upstairs neighbors. I'm not sure what to do about this. I know I should just walk upstairs and knock on the door and say "hey, can you keep it down please? thanks a bunch" but whenever it happens I'm always half-dressed or un-dressed and cuddled up in bed not wanting to move or I'm awoken suddenly like today in a full-on rage that wouldn't be very becoming or neighborly. By the time I calm down, the noise has stopped or I don't care.
The various and thumping and rolling around that goes on during the course of a day or evening doesn't really disturb me -- it's the heavy-footed running down the stairs that happens right by our head while lying in bed. Maybe I should steal a sign from the school across the street that says "no running in the halls".
But I'm just ranting here in my journal because now everything is quiet and I'll do something sensible about it later, right now I just need to get some anger and aggression out that doesn't invole beating the walls with a rubber mallet. Taking a hot shower and shaving helped.
I'm leaving the house soon to run errands and get work done elsewhere. I was feeling a bit frustrated and down on myself in a writerly sense after getting an e-mail from my mentor. Luckily I made myself re-read it half an hour later and forced myself to not insert tone that doesn't exist. It's amazing what filters we have that translate statements into either different meanings or just infuse them with emotions that weren't intended. And sure enough, I re-read her critique and it wasn't even that bad, ego-wise.
In between all this, I keep replaying events from last night and I get a big silly grin on my face. To those who missed it for various reasons, I hope it will happen again in the not-too-distant future. I still might write a long narrative of the evening, but for now I'm saving my words for my fiction.
The various and thumping and rolling around that goes on during the course of a day or evening doesn't really disturb me -- it's the heavy-footed running down the stairs that happens right by our head while lying in bed. Maybe I should steal a sign from the school across the street that says "no running in the halls".
But I'm just ranting here in my journal because now everything is quiet and I'll do something sensible about it later, right now I just need to get some anger and aggression out that doesn't invole beating the walls with a rubber mallet. Taking a hot shower and shaving helped.
I'm leaving the house soon to run errands and get work done elsewhere. I was feeling a bit frustrated and down on myself in a writerly sense after getting an e-mail from my mentor. Luckily I made myself re-read it half an hour later and forced myself to not insert tone that doesn't exist. It's amazing what filters we have that translate statements into either different meanings or just infuse them with emotions that weren't intended. And sure enough, I re-read her critique and it wasn't even that bad, ego-wise.
In between all this, I keep replaying events from last night and I get a big silly grin on my face. To those who missed it for various reasons, I hope it will happen again in the not-too-distant future. I still might write a long narrative of the evening, but for now I'm saving my words for my fiction.
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i'm holding you to it!
Date: 2004-02-16 01:34 pm (UTC)i'm soooo upset i missed it. and who knows if this future date will be anything like last night. you were on fire before you even got there. daaaaang. i should have just skipped out on sleep for it. pfeh.
Re: i'm holding you to it!
Date: 2004-02-16 09:10 pm (UTC)and please, by all means, hold me to it. it's good to have witnesses when i go crazy to remind me later that i'm not always a boring homebody stuck in books.
Re: i'm holding you to it!
Date: 2004-02-17 08:18 am (UTC)for real?! i can't wait!!! i won't forget this, mister.