Dreams, they're for those that sleep.

[raybear]

This morning I puked for the first time since surgery. Um, three days after the fact. That doesn't seem right. I'm alone in the house now, after an afternoon and evening of lovely visits from guests, and I can't keep my eyes focused or my train of thought in line. I'm tired of being stoned. So tomorrow I wake up sober and plan to stay that way through the day. Except for arnica. I thought the vicodin was helping the nausea/dizzy spells but now I'm pretty sure it's causing it, and I can't handle it. I've also just reached my saturation point where my body is tired of having chemicals inside of it. That might sound weird, but it happens to me sometimes, with cold medications but also alcohol or caffeine. I will drink lots of water and do lots of deep breathing and hope I don't have too much withdrawal or bad reaction. Frankly, I'd rather have chest pain right now if it means I can have me brain and stomach back. I'll deal with the itchy and strange discomfort of the drains and tubes for one more day, if it means no more shaking or room spinning. Being high isn't fun anymore.

Well, except for when I get comfortable and I can sit and stare into space and be perfectly entertained for half an hour. But those moments are coming fewer and further between.

Comments

[isis-venomz.livejournal.com]

I forgot to tell you that I'm happy your surgery went smoothly...I didn't catch the details on your chest surgery but it sounds serious.

[nineinchlovely.livejournal.com]

You may want to try oral antihistamines for the itching. When the itching got bad, I called Brownstein and he said I could use it. Your mileage may of course vary, but it may be a better fit than heavy duty painkillers. Glad to know all is well though. I can't wait to see you.

::confetti::

[masscooper.livejournal.com]

Yeah, vicodin definitely gave me the spins. And the I'm-so-drugged-up-that-I-can't-laughs.

In other news: Congratulations!

[saltjam.livejournal.com]

Damn. He only gave you Vicodin? He used to give "harder" pain killers...
I puked when I watched my Mom pour the blood from my drains into a pan.
And I'd take a pain pill and literally fall asleep 10 minutes later for about 30 minutes and then I'd be awake. ANYWAY.
Congratulations on your surgery! Hope you recover fast and well.

[kneidlach.livejournal.com]

Hey there -- This is Isaiah, sidekick of brothernumber3. It was nice to meet you on Sat. and I hope you're feeling way better by now. Anyway I just wanted to say that if you e-mail me (dragonbutch2 at yahoo.com) with your address I will send you those very cute pictures that Mr Busypants aka Wyatt has procrastinated on sending you for so long.