raybear | See, that's just too much.

Now I'm OVER-full. I always do that with stuffed pizza. One piece isn't enough, two is way too much. But I'm still very very happy and sated.

I'm excited for this weekend, which will hopefully be a nice blend of home time and social goings-on. Tomorrow I'm planning on sleeping in, doing laundry, washing dishes, and vacuuming, which involves moving things off the floor so the vacuum can be run. Then in the late afternoon I'm meeting up with Mr. Ryan, which I'm excited about, because I always love hanging out with trannyfolk and genderqueers. And I love Nookie's. So it's a good pairing. Then I'm going to the drag king show that night. I'm actually just going by myself, which is sort of weird for me. But I'll know several folks there, so it's not like I'll be hiding in the corner or whatever.

Then Sunday will be my hang-out/date thing with El___. But that's all I have planned for the day, so I'll probably just bum around at home, run errands, etc. the rest of the time. Damon is leaving town on Saturday and will be gone all of next week. It'll be weird to not have him around, especially now that I have more free time with the bookstore done.

I'm still in really good spirits these days. And I'm sleeping pretty well, too. I haven't taken any melatonin in the past 3 nights, and I haven't taken much kava either. Though I'm going to try and take it fairly regularly, just to keep myself in check and at a more even keel.

Oh, I forgot to mention that after I wrote that long post about the dilemma with the "friend", she called me last night and left a message. I didn't call her back. In fact, I just felt paralyzed when I heard the message and just deleted it, and sort of put it out of my head. Which is why I'm just now mentioning it, I suppose.

This morning I listened to Barbra Streisand on my walkman on the train, and I felt so...subversive. Like, I would look at people looking at me and think "I bet you'd never guess in a million years that I'm jamming to Babs".

Coming in and out of your life isn't easy.