It's these expressions I never give
Sep. 13th, 2006 03:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
raybearThere was a bit of a rough patch today, pretty much between 10 am and 2 pm. It seems to have levelled out a bit. During my walk I realized that every block in downtown Chicago has approximately 37 eating establishments. Potbelly's, McDonalds, Corner Bakery, La Cocina, Godiva, the English tobacco shop, they all beckoned me, but what nearly had me crack was Garrett's popcorn. I survived and made it back to the office and finished up my liquid, with some whey protein added to keep me from fainting. So far, so good. I just typed "food" instead of "good." Cancel page for Dr. Freud.
This morning some thought triggered me to go back and rfind a journal entry from 5 years ago which led to reading lots of other entires and one of them was me posting an intense e-mail from my father. There were also lots of private entries about things I was struggling with in relationships that I'd virtually forgotten about until now. The forgetting, it's a tricky thing, because in both cases, I am still learning, I am still struggling with the exact same issues. Five years later. I guess that's how it works though, right, the lessons only repeat themselves because we haven't learned them. Or maybe just those trial runs are necessary, are required as part of the learning.
This morning some thought triggered me to go back and rfind a journal entry from 5 years ago which led to reading lots of other entires and one of them was me posting an intense e-mail from my father. There were also lots of private entries about things I was struggling with in relationships that I'd virtually forgotten about until now. The forgetting, it's a tricky thing, because in both cases, I am still learning, I am still struggling with the exact same issues. Five years later. I guess that's how it works though, right, the lessons only repeat themselves because we haven't learned them. Or maybe just those trial runs are necessary, are required as part of the learning.
