phone-phobia and free flying

I managed to e-mail/call 3 folks on my list of people that I needed to contact. I will probably manage to make one more call this afternoon. Maybe even an e-mail or two. Slowly but surely.

Busy morning at work, which is good and bad. Makes the time go faster and makes me simultaneously energized and aggravated. But I'll probably go to lunch soon which will make many things better. Also, I got a fun work surprise this morning -- I won a "raffle" (among many other coworkers) and received one free round-trip plane ticket on United to anywhere in the U.S. (48 states). Start the bidding now for my visit! Right now, Seattle is in the lead. In second place is a NYC/Philadelphia/New Haven combo vacation deal. I have to fly before March 31st and give 21 days notice, so there are some restrictions. And I also have to plan my time off around my other co-workers who also got free tickets.

Other options include:
NYC/etc.
Arizona (hi stuey!)
DC
Los Angeles
Atlanta
San Francisco

I think I sense a poll in the development. So you can start lobbying now and/or add additional city suggestions that aren't listed above, or you can wait until the official poll is up, probably later this afternoon when I'm not working.

sometimes i think that i know what love's all about and when i see the light i know i'll be alright

One method to test if you're dreaming it to try and remember how you got where you are. For example, if you're suddenly walking on a beach but you can't remember driving to it.

I can't remember how I got where I am right now.
Not on the microcosm level -- I can remember the alarm going off, and taking a shower and picking clothes and realizing I need to laundry and hurrying to catch the train to be at work early......
But on a larger scale, I'm dreaming. I don't know how I got to this job, this desk, this lack of ambition, lack of vision. I can't remember what I was doing one year ago that led me here. Or 2 years ago. Or 3 years ago.
I feel I've been asleep for a long time, regarding certain aspects of my life. And I'm struggling to wake up because I'm not entirely happy or satisfied with how this dream is going. It's stagnant and frustrating. But I'm also scared to open my eyes and get started on real life. Maybe I'll wake up and be unable to leave my bed. Would it just be better to stay asleep then? I don't think so. But I'm not entirely confident.