sometimes all I need is the air that I breathe

I'm looking for a break in the heat very soon. Though you wouldn't have guessed it since I'm wearing a t-shirt with no jacket. But at least I'm weating pants instead of shorts. It's bizarre to sleep in the warm humidity, unwilling to touch any sheet or any body. I also blame the heat on my difficulty in getting up in the morning -- it's like I wake up lethargic.

Last night I gave myself in a haircut in a style I'll call "the Loop mohawk", named because it might be unusual when I'm downtown in the looop, but in my home neighborhood, it's practically conservative. I definitely have a strip of hair on the top of my head, about 3 inches wide that's significantly longer than the rest of the hair on my head. And today I used some product to shape a nice slope and give it a touch of height. But, if you saw me from a distance, you might just perceive me to have a grown-out flat top. And if I comb it forward you can barely tell at all. But it's enough to entertain me right now.

Today I plan on making some shoe purchases at Payless, and then sometime soon I must make my way to the thrift store to buy some shorts and possibly short sleeve shirts. My wardrobe is definitely lacking for warm weather.

And when I actually got a look at me vest in the mirror, it looked totally different than I expected, or how I had pictured it in my head (when trying it on in the bathroom, I didn't leave the stall to examine it in the mirror). It looks fairly ridiculous with just a white a-frame on top, but it might look okay with a grey one, at least in a casual way. Not for public outings. Is it strange that there are certain outfits I deem inappropriate even for just sitting around in the house by myself? I mean, hey, I have to look at myself too. But in general I'm still enjoying the new vest and today I'm wearing a tight ringer t-shirt that I previously gave up with my last binding method. I must admit I feel sort of exposed because I only have two layer, and both are thin (compared to 2 binding layer, one thin, one thick, plus one or two shirts). It makes me wonder how strange it will feel post-surgery to wear only one shirt. I think the nerves on my torso have been affected, though probably not permanently. But that's a scary thought.

Now it's time for farewell cake

twinkletoes, you're breaking my heart.

Do not bark up that tree, that tree will fall on you. Please no, not Ray, he's not for play.

I'm so laaaaaame.

Anyway, enough quoting lyrics. Let's return to the matter at hand. All previous topics for LJ entries have been temporarily postponed -- you'll have to read about my new payless shoes or the first entry in the chronicles of "Teachers I Loved" another time. Instead, I'm turning to you, dear reader, and polling the audience to help make a decision.

On Saturday evening, I had a wonderful event planned to see a very funny friend do her first ever stand-up routine. Now, we're not best friends -- I've only recently got to know her, and she's the girlfriend of one of MelRo's law school friends, but I like her a lot and hope to get to know her more. I went last weekend to see her perform as part of a comedy troupe, but this weekend will be her solo act. The event is at 7 pm. It will probably last about 2 hours, and probably an outing will occur afterwards. The event is located approximately 2 blocks from my house. I already said I would pay for a ticket.

I just got an e-mail from a student organizer of the queer undergraduate group at U of C. Their DJ cancelled on them for a queer party THIS saturday night. It's from 9pm to 1am. It's in Hyde Park (which is very far from my house, for those who don't know). They'll pay me $300.

I could try to do both. But I'd probably have to leave the comedy event at 8 pm to make sure I got to the DJ gig early enough, and the Stand Up Friend doesn't know when she's going (I just e-mailed her).

What would you do? {insert City High here} Keep in mind I'm generally anti-stress, anti-anxiety-inducing activities, and occasionally lazy. So instead, maybe I should ask:

[Poll #28572]

you can't have your cake and eat it too, because after you eat it, you no longer have it. it's gone

So I'm accepting the DJ gig. And I'm not going to my friend's gig. Shortly after I posted the poll I made the decision. I'm not sure why I even had a moment of freakout that was big enough to warrant a poll.

In reality, my only viable options (as in options I would truly choose) were choice #1 or choice #2. The reasons being: Djing for 4 hours is a tiring task -- I need to be fully rested and prepared beforehand, not running around trying to do too many things at once. And although option number 4 looks great on paper, it's way more annoying and timeconsuming -- I'd have to find the time to create a dance mixtape, then I would have to find a way to get the tape to the organizer before the event(s). And this is in a neighborhood across town -- a 30 minute drive, which is hard if you don't have a car.

And justaboi was remarkably the only person who chose #2, aside from myself. Though to be fair, limenal recommended the same option in an independent e-mail.
I think my fears came more from my tendency toward inertia (aka lazyness) and not wanting to change plans at the last minute. Also, like I mentioned before, 4 hours is a LONG time and it will make for an intense weekend, rather than a completely relaxing one. BUT, as MelRo astutely pointed out, I will be exposing myself to the Hyde Park market, which is a good thing. This is my new career here -- it's time to take it seriously.

Oh, and have I yet mentioned the 300 hundred dollars? I'll just send my friend some flowers wishing her good luck doing the stand up gig.

I'm off to see Paradise Regained's play